I LOVE ELLEN DEGENERES!

Mooski #19 Want You Bad - The Offspring

The Offspring are awesome. This song is awesome.

That is all.


I remember you. When you first talked to me, you were listening to this song.

Thanksgivins! :DD

Ooooooooh man, what a GOOD BREAK.

Get home Weds around like, 8. Did nothing. Only boring day of break... hah

Turkey Day: went to some neat ass hotel built in the 1800s in Volcano. Ate hella good food. Had an exceptional time with Mom, Marc & Waylon... Went to Denny's with Matt, Chris, and Jacob. Had a grilled cheese filled with mozzarella sticks dipped in cheese sauce. HomyGod, delicious heart attack, go! Went to Rory's to say hi after. Watched Aaron dance. (HE'S SO WHITE ♥ XD) Enjoyed self until random douche dude and his friend showed up. Left and went to sreeps.

Black Friday: went to the outlets. Made out like a bandit. Prolly spent too much money. Bought pants that didn't fit. URRRGH! Had an awesome time with the BFF, Cindy. Missed her so much. Went back to her place for a bit, said hi to the wonderful Specert family, and then went out for delicious delicious sushhhiis! 11 people showed. (Me, Jacob, Bree, Chelsea, Aaron, Matt, Chris, Ryan Miller, Matt Smolich, Ryan's sister Rachel, & Dean!) I felt super special. Ryan Miller's sister is a SLUG! We had a great time chatting about UCSC-esque things. Super happy. Love the neon lights and glittery purple post things that hold up the ceiling. Awesome times were had. People left sushis and went off to party. Smolich, Jacob and I went back to his place and played some Crystal Chronicles. Boob Squad > life. Really glad I finally got to meet Smolich, he's hella cool. Chris showed up at Jacob's later and MineCrafted his heart out. The entertainment, it was so intense. Passed out around 2.

Saturday: went to Sunrise Mall to get my hair done. My hair person is the greatest, ever. I've got to learn how to drive for her. Haircut is hella cute! Mom bought me my Christmas present early -- a purple and black plaid skirted peacoat. Yeah motherfucker, it's awesome. :D Went back to Pac Sun to return jeans that didn't fit, got three pairs (instead of two) for twenty dollars more, and fell in love with the store's manager. Hella good deals yaaay! AND NOW I HAVE PANTS THAT FIT. OMG. Got home around 3-ish, I think, and finished Logan's friendship bracelet. Then went sock shopping with Jacob... ate delicious delicious pizza at Cheeser's, then Chris met up with us. We all went back to Jacob's, watched some anime... and then Aaron showed up. After, went to Taco Bell. Did not eat Taco Bell. Then went to go pick up Matty out of butt-fuck nowhere. Srsly. Got kind of car sick on the way, and it took about an hour. You're lucky we love you so much, Matty! Went back to Jacob's. Matt and Chris left to get cars/controllers. Aaron watched Jacob play MineCraft, I went through Matt's iPod pictures. Midnight. Matt and Chris return with their bounty. We Vesperia. We destroy balloons. WE PULL OUR HAIR OUT TAKING RIDICULOUS ORDERS AT 3 IN THE FUCKING MORNING. We are rewarded with French maids and kitty cat costumes. Victory is achieved. Vesperiaing continues until 4:30 AM. Pass out at about... 5:30 AM.

Tales of Vesperia!

Sunday: Wake up around noon, fuck that shit, wake up again around 1:30. Had a dream about a boy. (!) Shower, dress, internet, 4:00. Go shopping for foods for potluck with Jacob. Buy salad and green beans. Make green beans at home, add salt and pepper and make them amazing! Watch a little terrible television, and head out to College Group. Arrive at College Group, proceed with hella days hugs and greetings. SO HAPPY TO SEE EVERYONE! Chat while the finishing touches and other stuff goes on. Play with Charlotte ♥. Eat the fuck out of some turkey, after saying grace of course! HAH! Eat the fuck out of some lemon custard pie. Dean is the greatest. Make postcards for poor 10 year old girl with terminal cancer. Feel good about possibly making her life a little more happier. Give more hugs, roll out. Home. End of break.

It was good. So good. :]

Can't wait to get back to SC tomorrow and see my beautiful people there. I feel weird not seeing some people for more than like, 12 hours. Like... y'know, the ones that live in my house? ♥

Gonna make Cory's bracelet tomorrow on the train. Prolly won't finish it, but it'll be done before winter break!

Passin' the fucccck out soon, gotta get up at 7:30... :/

Nighty, blog!

This is Really Relevant to My Last Relationship:

(Greg, btdubs.)

Quote

Almost as cool as Plato's "Read a fucking book!"

:D

Funny that it's by Tori Morrison, though, 'cause she def wrote Beloved, and honestly, that novel was not really the most inspirational or upbeat or even freaking pleasant thing to read... in fact... fuck Beloved. Fuck it.

Tori Morrison is hella legit though. /

lol... Love It.

Me: Pauly D cracks me up so bad...
Ana: I'd do him. He has sexy abs. Ugly face but sexy abs. I love abs.

So I'm a Fan of Tumblr.

Our psychological state allows us to see only what we want/need/feel to see at a particular time. What five words do you see?

My Words:

1. Kiss
2. Passion
3. Chat
4. Murder
5. Rage

...very interesting... XD

It Was Stuck in Riley's Head, and Then Mine:

Some pretty intense luls, if I do say so myself!

The little girl is so cute... XD

The Weekend of the Captain!

I've sure been doin' a lot of these recap thinggers lately... prolly 'cause I've got time on the weekends to blog blog blog 'til my daddy takes my computer away~ ♪♪

Man, that's silly. Duurrrrrr hurrrr hurrrr ...

So, wtf am I goin' to talk about today? I guess I should start with Friday, don't think anything huge and/or significant happened during the week.

Friday was cool: Rocky Horror. My friend Stephanie was Janet, and she was adorable. So awesome. I danced on stage with Ana and Cory, and it totally made my night! Besides, my legs looked awesome in those heels. Ohhh baby. :]

Ladies!

That night basically consisted of Cpt. Morgan, Rocky, order pizza, pass out. It was good, it was chill. No depressed Darlene, ftw.

THE NEXT DAY! Saturday!

I got up and dressed around noon. Left my place around 1:45. Went to a house on Ocean street for a house show. Stayed until like, 6 something. Silly Creature was awesome, as usual, Time Machine was... pretty good? And Zeyphr's band was a FUNK band and it impressed me quite a bit! So cool! Voto was also there for a while makin'... beats? Or something... dunno... with a pedal board. Neat neat neat!

After that, Pranov and I went to Taco Bell. We feasted. Crunchwraps, hooo!
Wes was also with us. Is it bad that I'm basically totally sketched out by him? Hah...
THEN we went to the Pacific Cookie Company to see Max (Pranov's friend) annnnnnnnnnd we got some cookies. I had a chocolate covered snickerdoodle.

Friends are good, right? I think so.

We went to the downtown house for a bit afterward. I think Pranov was in the bathroom or something, because Wes and I were chillin' in the front room by our lonesomes for a while. Sort of weird, but whatever. We decided to roll out to Church House early to try and avoid the storm getting any worse. Dunno if it was a good call or not... heh

We ended up at Church House at like 7:40. 'Bout 20 mins early, but there were people there already anyway. No biggie. We just attempted to dry off and hung out for a bit. Church House has stadium seating now and it's awesome!

Riley showed up next. The boys had some beer, they were content. A little wet, but content~ ♪♪

Then Cory, Freshman, Logan, and Tanner showed up. I was joined on the couch for a bit, but then people were like "HOMYGOD BEER PONG GOOOOOO!" Annnd I ended up warmin' the couch by myself for a while. Was nice. Relaxing. I was super tired from the like... 4 hours of music earlier, anyway.

I finally got up to go watch some pong. I was interested in their rules... comapin' 'em to our Rancho rules. We play hardcore pong in the 'Cho. Intense shit, y'know?

I feel like Rory would have been proud. Hah.

Anyway, during that, I heard there was more rum. Cpt. Morgan again. Mmmm. I had myself a shot. A tasty tasty shot... and then made myself some rum and coke. Def my favorite drink... :)

Downed that pretty quick, then had another shot. 'Twas my alcohol intake for the night... because the rum disappeared quickly...

Phrase of the night.

Oh then Voto showed up... and I was like heeeeeeeeey~!

I feel like I def drunk hit on him. A lot. S'ok. Liquid courage goooooooo!

But, at the end of the night, I managed to ask him if he'd like to spend some time together sometime, and he gave me a rather excited yes. Pretty sweet, dude!

BUT I got no number... lolfail... Tanner def got it... DERRRRP.

I also dunno if he was so excited 'cause he was drunk, too. Merp. Self-doubt, hooo!

So, the bands that played were pretty good. Six in one day. Was like a festival. In my backyard. SO COOL. (I ♥ SC!)

I can't remember the third band's name, but of course, our loves, Under a Western Sky played, and another new (?) band named In the Airplane played as well. Was a good show. Under a Western Sky created a mosh pit, as usual. Was a rather intense one. I was sitting off to the side (with Voto, btw, GLEEEEEEEEEE) and I got hit in the mouth, and then someone knocked my glasses off and one of the nose pieces def scratched my face a bit. Ooow. OH well. If I had actually been in that pit, I prolly would have died. Was fun watching my friends go, though!

Freshman said he got like, 4 concussions. I dunno man. I dunno.

Blaaargg. So the music ended around 11, and everyone was intoxicated enough already so we decided to roll back onto campus. Was prolly a good call.

The bus was stupid full when we got on, the bus driver was hella legit and let WAY more of us than he should have (by bus company type thing regulations)... it was awesome.

I didn't have anything to hold on to, so I kind of kept falling over. Sorry, Riley & Tanner. XD

When we went past the UCSC guard thing, all of us in the front ducked. It was so funny.

The bus also died twice. Succcccccccch an awesome bus ride! Yahooo! :]

Yep. Anyway. Made it back to Porter. Drank another shot (forgot about that one!), went to my room, hung out for a bit. Tanner ordered a shit load of pizza... blah blah blah watched some YouTube videos...

I think I almost cried again. Def almost went into depressed drunk Darlene mode again. Meh.

Whenever I feel bad, though, the guys always tell me, "it could be worse, you could have a dick."

I dunno how that's supposed to make me feel better. At all.

And I kept saying, "I hate my life" last night... I do, sort of. Lately I've been really, really down. Can't find a relationship... I miss them so much... don't have that special person to just bond with, don't have that person to just love me for who I am. It's so hard to live without that when I know how good it is, and when I lived with it for so long. ARRGGHH.

(There was a point in the night where I was looking at your name in my phone, considering things...)

I'm well aware that people are worse off than me. Shit dude, I always try my best to eat every once of food I take from the d-hall because I am so aware of things. I always try my best to appreciate things. I get pissed as fuck when people don't appreciate the things they have... I def say, "I hate my life" versus "My life is so terrible." I don't have to like my life, even if it's a rather okay one. Mother fuckin' Great Gatsby, anyone? Urg.

I don't know why I'm so particularly upset. Oh well~

This week is Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving break. I need it. Bad. Can't wait to see my family and friends in the 'Cho! I especially miss Cindy, my Mom, my broski-bro, and Matty. Always miss Matty. Oh and Chris and Brittainy, too! Always, I want to be with them! HAH!

Man, this post reeks of retarded-ness sometimes. Oh well.

Overall, was a pretty good weekend. Now I gotta read shit fo' class, and shower, and eat, and get on with my life!

There's tomorrow to worry about: gotta edit my paper, finish my readings, and... y'know... get ready to go home. :)

I'm gonna be rollin' out on Weds. Weds afternoon, headin' home on the 17.

I'm excited. Gonna make so many friendship bracelets.

Oh and dude, Freshman gave me an iPod (!!!) so I can listen to music on the way home! ♥

Such a good Freshman.

Such good musics.

Annnnnnnnnd in celebration of our liquor of choice!:

lolFaulkner

“There is no such thing as bad whiskey. Some whiskeys just happen to be better than others. But a man shouldn't fool with booze until he's fifty; then he's a damn fool if he doesn't.” —Faulkner

I really wish I had the old power point I made of him for junior year... it was so good! Best page was def: "What the Faulkner?!" :DD

This is one of my favorite picture things, I'm so glad the interwebs allowed me to find it again!

15 famous drunks, for your viewing pleasure!:

Mooski #18 Just the Way You Are - Bruno Mars

I dunno who this guy is. But this song was featured somewhere else... somewhere special... and I heard it in Marini's the other night. Kinda got to me. A lot of things have been getting to me lately. Questioning a lot of who I am, what I do, and stuff. Dunno. Sometimes I really feel like returning to the hermit that I was. It's still sort of hard for me digest how incredibly social I am now...

Oh well. Thank you, :).

Video is pretty cool... enjoy!



Really ironic how the girl in the video is freaking gorgeous. Stupid society. lol

In Celebration of Harry Potter:

I figured out what house I'd be in. I feel like Hufflepuff is most suited to meeeeeeeeee! :) They're supposed to be loyal, patient, and hard-working. Makes sense, right?

Then I googled Hufflepuff! LOOK WHAT I GOT!





Going to sreeps now, good night~

Bloooooog

So many things I need to post.

So little time to think. So little time to type.

So little will to do anything. Ugh.

(Except read. I like to read.)

I feel like I'm dying.

In other news: I'm becoming more and more like a writer!

Drinkin' my sorrows away, look at me go!

Fuck yeah for Faulkner. He's my writing hero.

Many, many great writers were also sort of alcoholics! YEAAAAH!

(I'm not really gonna become an alcoholic, btw, just sayin'.)

It was really nice seeing Kendal tonight. And Pranov earlier, too. I miss downtown people.

The Office reminds me of home. Of orchestra. I miss it.

Had a really weird dream this morning, too.

Me, my Mom, and Logan were there. We were all watching this amazing beautiful holy God mind blowingly awesome symphony in this really elaborate, fancy ass concert hall. There was a lot of gold, like, plating stuff? And the curtains were fashionably red. Really picture-esque and beautiful. Reminds me of the very opening of Moulin Rouge! Anyway, I don't remember much, but, something had happened, and like, my Mom just sort of disappeared. Then I got really, really sad... incredibly, incredibly depressed, and Logan was the only one there, it's just he was just super distant and it was really weird - like, he was trying to comfort me, but it was all bad, didn't work. I woke up pretty depressed. Hah. Good times. ~.~

Anyway, weird shit. Don't really want to think about it. Errrg.

Don't like my dreams. Unless I'm dreaming of squirrels.

I like squirrels.

BLAAAAAAAARG.

Hijacked From Kimmy

I feel like my mother and I have done this before. I kind of miss her. I kind of miss home. But not like last year -- I don't desperately want to leave SC, it's just gonna be nice to be home for a bit.

Dorkin' Like a Pro

Got bored, played around in model viewer, made this:

She's such a cute character! :]



I could totally write something about her...

Random Awesome

• Anatidaephobia is the fear that somewhere in the world, there is a duck watching you.

• 'Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia' is the fear of long words.

• Grapes EXPLODE when you put them in the microwave!

• A Rubik's cube has 43,252,003,274,489,856,000 possible configurations.

Not Really That Much of a Dumb Ass, but a Little

Title ^

Need fatty blog updates soon... so much to talk about homygod!

Good Way to Explain Last Night:

Mooski #17 Eggs - Mayhem

This song... is a little weird... but I really like it.

It's also brought to you by my electronic music guru friend, Alec.

FRL! Shenanegins

I made this today:

I also drew ice-cream cone things that are happy to go to FroYo! They're super cute.

Excitement.

I didn't write my article for FRL! It can wait for another time, I guess.

Sometimes!

I feel like I'm on top of the world...

and others,

I feel like I'm falling off the top of the world...

Deep shit, yo.

So I'm STILL a Dumb Ass...

But I handled shit. I HANDLED SHIT. YEAAAAH!

Everything is okay. I feel normal. And okay. And better about myself.

I'm also hella hungry. D-hall better have some good food tonight. Srsly.

I got an article to write! Aiyee!

Nothing will happen. I will get over it. I will not care next week. Yep.

...I need to go to some parties and find me a man. ARGH! Haaaah...

Yeah, well, whatever. Blog is blog is blog is blog... I just want to be more open, more honest, more me. I like me. I'm a good person and I'm happy being me... yay.

Blah de blah blah, none of this should have ever been posted. If it causes drama, I am going to first be upset, and second have a nice chuckle.

Uh huh. Life. Life is okay. Or maybe even good? Maybe?

So I'm a Dumb Ass...

That's seriously how I feel right now.

Not in my right mind.

HURRR DERRRP.

I wanna go chat with people.

Stupid optimistic today. Gonna crash hard.

God damnit. lol

Weekend Recap!

ALRIGHT.

This weekend was good.

Like, perfectly good.

Except Ana was at home. :( I love my roommate!

Oh and Logan and Freshman were, too. Derp. :D

(I missed them all, srsly.)

Tanner's friend Bouset came to visit. I really liked her. She really likes purple, too! ♥

Friday we watched V for Vendetta (Nov. 5th, bitches!), and then Castle in the Sky. Both were awesome.

We also wandered outside to go play on the carousel. It was good. We kind of planned an orgy as well, s'good shit man.

Saturday, I woke up and went to FRL! I freaking love Fish Rap, it's the greatest. Got done there at like 3. I now know how to use In-Design! Yahoo!

Theeeeeeeen me, Mark & Cam went downtown to buy the good noms. Bought good noms and a bag of Sour Patch Kids & Sweedish Fish. Everyone was overjoyed for the fish and kids. Mmmmm, candy!

Saturday night... we got drunk and played Mario Kart.  

BEST IDEA EVER.

Michael Jackson and Batman reside in the Wii here. It is awesome. 

We're gonna drink the rest of the stuff on Weds, and play moaaarrr! No class on Thursday ftw! ^^/

In other news, I think I am now the group drunkard.

I woke up this morning with my shots numbered on my fingers (5, 4, 3, 2, 1) and then "I ♥ shots! :)" on my hand.

lol.

I also started playing Fable III today. HELLA FUN.

But back to me being drunk as fuck. I def passed out in my bed last night.

I also apparently confirmed that I am bisexual last night. I don't remember.

Not that anyone was surprised...

There was one more thing that I apparently "confirmed" last night...

Alec said it was noticable that I kinda like Riley.

I'm scared. XD

I'm prolly gonna say something to him sometime soon. But God damn I feel like a dumb ass. I also feel like... I have a man, Riley's single type of crush. Not like intense feelings or anything. That'd be silly. And mostly suicidal. I want to live. And keep my friends. Haha. It's not like Riley would ever be interested in me, anyway. Haaaah.

OH FRIENDS. RIGHT. I HAS THEM.

I has a Kendal Korn. And I would like her to know that it is okay. Everything is okay and I love her to death. Yeppity yep yep.

Let's see... what else...

Oh,

Feelings for Logan are mostly gone. He's just a freaking attractive person. Bastard. lol

Finally got to talk to Freshman. Was good. Horribly good..? Either way, things are clear now. Thank God. I can freak out 15 times less now.

Got a test on Weds. Gonna be studying a lot. Fuckin' shit, dude.

I feel like there was something else I was gonna say, but I forgot. Le sigh.

Oh well. Sleepy time..? I guess. Tired. Tired-ish and bored...

Lit1 Essay #1 - Kiss of the Spider Woman

Darlene McCoy

Madeline McDougal Lane

LIT1

10 November 2010

A Novel of a Film

Prison cells are dark, deep, holes in walls that cut off a man and his cell mate from the outside world. The stone cold confinements provide no beauty to gaze upon; no color to even spark one's imagination. So, in these unchanging chambers, what are two men, confined to their own miniature world, to do but interact with one another? Manuel Puig imagines the going-ons of two imprisoned men, Luis Alberto Molina, and Valentin Arregui Paz, in his novel, The Kiss of the Spider Woman. Valentin is a stone cold political activist - detained for taking part in a hunger strike against the Argentinian government. On the contrary, his cellmate Molina bleeds romance; he uses films to fantasize about life, and more importantly to him, love. Molina's interest in film leads him to recount them to Valentin, including a work of unnamed Nazi propaganda. The film shares an astonishing amount of similarities to the novel as a whole: the plot and characters in each tale mirror the other.

In both plot lines, the two main characters encounter one another during times of political turmoil. In the novel's plot, Molina meets Valentin because he has been set up by the Argentinian government to extract extremist schemes from Valentin. The government throws them in a cell together, and expects Molina to develop a friendship with Valentin. They believe that with time, Valentin will reveal the deep dark secrets of his extremist group to Molina, and that Molina will relay the information back to them. In the film's plot, Leni, a fine woman who embodies France, meets Werner, a young German lieutenant at one of her shows. While it is not odd for a German to be in France - Werner was there to enjoy some fine entertainment after a full day of regulating the occupation of Paris during the Third Reich. During the show his eyes spied Leni, and after he left flowers in her dressing room. With time and some courting, the two become as well acquainted as Molina and Valentin.

The second significant plot point shared between the novel and film is that both Molina and Leni are given clear incentive to betray their respective friend. The warden of the prison utilizes Molina's mother's happiness to further prod him into uncovering Valentin's extremists' plots. He discloses, "It seems your mother is feeling a lot better, since he spoke to her about the possibility of a pardon... She's practically a new person" (149). The warden, well aware of Molina's intense compassion for his mother, employs his love against him. This situation parallels Leni's in the Nazi film. A man known as the clubfoot, who affiliates himself with the French maquis brings Leni and her cousin to a rendezvous point. He explains to Leni that she is to infiltrate German man's headquarters to find papers denoting the location of an immense German arsenal. She refuses the offer at first, but when the clubfoot threatens her cousin with death, her only option is to cooperate - "So she promises to do whatever she can" (75). The clubfoot, aware of Leni's love for her cousin, uses her love against her.

Over time, Molina and Valentin, and Leni and Werner's relationships progress to the point where they fall in love. Though their betrayals continue, the two betrayers comply less and less with their orders; they want to reveal less and less to their oppressors. Because the couples fell in love, the men with the information willingly give out their secrets to their believed-to-be confidants. Leni and Molina attain the information that will take their lives, and the plots thicken.

Each leading lady discovers her own way of deceiving the man in her life. The warden assists Molina in keeping Valentin fully decieved by providing him with specific bags of groceries. "We have to come up with something to justify your euphoria, Molina. That's definite. I know now, we can requisition some groceries for you, and pack them up the same way, how does that strike you?" (151). Supposedly sent to Molina by his mother, the bags retain the validity of Molina's fib. Valentin never becomes aware. Leni beguiles Werner using her voice and a piano. Werner sends his majordomo down into the cellar to fetch an expensive wine, and then continues outside. Leni approaches the piano to provide herself with an accompaniment to her singing, but instead of doing so, she sets down a record loaded with her talent. She starts the music, and then enters Werner's office to scour through his things. "But she manages to prepare a little bit of a ruse, and puts on a recording of herself that's accompanied by piano too, and meanwhile she goes into his private study and starts rummaging through the papers" (75). Werner and the other men believe that the record is actually Leni, and they never discover her deceit.

Each story sets up a "death trap" for each of the heroines. The warden of the novel orders men to follow Molina once he is out on parole, and if they come upon no information following him, they have orders to print an article in the local newspaper. The article will set Molina up as extremist bait - and once the fish bite, the government will pounce upon them like a starved panther. Either way - Molina is not set up for his benefit: he is merely an unaware pawn. While Leni's situation does not mirror Molina's exactly, she ends up in a "death trap" of her own. She returns to Paris to aid Werner in the search of the maquis. She manipulates the maquis into taking her to one of their establishments by teasing them with her knowledge of the German arsenal site. There, Werner's majordomo reveals to her that he is the head of the maquis, and that he is aware of Leni's affiliation with the Germans. He and his affiliates know that the Germans are behind her; that they are on their way. At that point in time, Leni becomes a pawn in a trap that is anything but beneficial for her. If the Germans realize her betrayal, she is just as safe with them as she is with the maquis.

Death ends a drama in quite the final fashion, and both plots close with one. Ferocious men shoot ferocious heroines down. Molina is killed in a shoot out between the warden's men and Valentin's extremists. The formal report reads, "At that moment, however, several shots were fired from a passing automobile, wounding CISL agent Joaquin Perrone, along with the subject, both of whom immediately fell to the ground" (274). Molina dies by the hands he was attempting to aid. Leni's life comes to a close as she grasps a curtain,
"...she opens a window to escape and right there down below stands the driver assassin, and her boyfriend sees him in time and fires a shot, but the clubfoot, no, I mean the driver, because the clubfoot's already dead back at the museum, then the driver, while he's dying there, manages to get off one shot at the girl" (92).
Leni dies by the hands she affiliated herself with.

The plot lines are not the only component of the novel and film that mirror one another. The characters themselves resemble their corresponding part. Molina and Leni and Valentin and Werner serve as the heroines and their respective lovers.

Though Molina's physical features define him as a man, he and Leni portray the female protagonist of their tale. The people of the world of The Kiss of the Spider Woman see women as creatures that romanticize life - they do not put politics, or any other just causes above love. Molina believes that he is a woman, and goes as far as to describe and refer to himself as such, "Hey, what do you take me for, and even dumber broad than I am?" (89). Molina features his womanly side, "That's how I am, very sentimental" (29). Molina refers to Leni, the woman he desires to be, as exquisitely woman-esque time and time again, even as, "The most divine woman you can imagine" (50). Both of these heroines die embodying their inner selves - ladies who revel in romance. While it is not completely clear that Molina died as the (wo)man he was, Valentin implies that he did so, "I think he let himself be killed because then he could die like some heroine in a movie, and none of that business about a just cause" (279). Only a woman would die so romantically. The last thing Leni did before she died was tell Werner that she loved him, "...she loses whatever strength she has left and says how much she loves him, and how they'll soon be together in Berlin again" (92). She demonstrates her femininity.

The two tales present Valentin and Werner as the manly male lovers. Men in the novel believe in politics and fighting for a "just cause" above all else. Valentin states his masculinity by explaining to Molina, "The great pleasure's something else, it's knowing I've put myself in the service of what's truly noble, I mean.. well... a certain ideology..." (28). A song depicts the waters of a German river, and it brings Werner to tears. He cannot hide his love of his country.  His love bolsters his manliness and is not seen as womanly because men who love their country to an incredible degree are man-gods, and are invincible (55). Physical beings fascinate Valentin and Werner. Valentin always asks, without fail, how the women in the films Molina describes look, "How is her figure? Does she have a good build, or is she more on the flat side?" (50). Leni's aesthetically pleasing figure brings about comments of, "what a marvelous creature [you are]" (55) from Werner's lips. He too, is entranced by beauty.

Though there may be a few cracks, this Nazi propaganda film mirrors The Kiss of the Spider Woman. The plot lines and characters share a copious amount of similar points that it is difficult not to wonder why they correlate so well. In the footnotes on pages 82-95 the Nazi film is recounted in its original theatrical form. Leni goes to Germany, and becomes a Nazi. She returns to France to aid Werner with the German occupation, and at the conclusion of the film, she is not the heroine she is portrayed to be - she also lives. Depending on when the reader reads the footnote, immediately after its notation or after they have finished reading the rest of the Nazi story, the reader will either have known of Molina's betrayal, or have felt betrayed by Molina's retelling. This evidence just further alludes to other happenings down the line. The Nazi film is a narrative hidden in a narrative that reflects its own - a meta-narrative to be discovered for as long as The Kiss of the Spider Woman is explored by readers.

Fuck Tonight

Seriously...

day was good though!

Streessssss

makes for a very tired/moderately depressed Darlene.

Good times, bitches. ~.~

Blogger Stats: October 2010

1,265 page views in October. Holy shit.

Mooski #16 Beauty in the Beast - Gavin Rossdale

Meh. No music video. Awesome song though. ♥

His more popular one is "Love Remains the Same," but this one kind of haunts me in a good way.

Cool shit.

Overview Halloween 2010

Oh. My. Fucking. God.

Holyshitonastickomgomgomg

Last night.

Did last night even happen?

K so I was kinda dumb last night.

Tequila Darlene, heeeeey!

K so got to Julia's at like 4.

Cleaning party commenced.

Cleaning party ended.

Subway was purchased.

Giants game was half watched.

Casey started fucking with Julia.

Rage commenced.

Rage more or less ended.

Booze commenced.

OHGOODLORDOMGINSANITYAIYEE

Booze entered bloodstream.

Roommate showed up.

Body shots were taken.

Insanity/rage commenced encore.

Oh God.

Things eventually died down.

Left for campus.

(Sorry I wasn't there to help clean guys...)

Passed the fuck out.

That's... a really broad overview of last night.

It's pretty scary. Actually, terrifying.