Urrrrghhh

I feel... really terrible tonight...

doing that... isolation... thing again...

...even VH1 didn't cure my feelings of... blah... tonight...

... n'est pas bien...

I dunno why I feel so bad anyway...

I just... kinda... do

and I've felt like throwing up again...

Mmmmm... I'm going to go to sleep soon...

Gonna get up at like... uh 9 or 10...

Eat... go to the bookstore... buy reader...

do homework...

go to physics...
go to Living Writers...
go watch musicals...
go to Late Night Noms...
and go to sleep...

Blaaarggg... I need something to cheer me up...

but I'm kind of in this rut, again

where I think that something is someone

:(

It's not Marc.

Marc is a thing, and a person, of the past now...

I still get kinda jittery around him, but mostly 'cause what happened between us was pretty freakin' awkward...

...and I've mostly given up on the guy from College 8...

I don't know if I ever really liked him anyway...

I feel really awful about Tanner, too, but I kinda know it was for the best.

I kinda wish I hadn't been so... quick about it... but he kinda asked for it, and I kinda told him what was up...

Now I've gotten a text

from a friend

whom I do like to be around quite a bit

"You're kinda cute."

Hm.

I dunno what I think about this yet...

'Cause, uh, the last time I went for something like this...

well,

um,

intense shit?

I dunno dude. I just dunno.

The only thing I do know right now is that it's about 1 AM, and I should really get some sleep.

Sleep... is beautiful. ♥