HolyShitFuck

I AM SO CUDDLY WHILE INTOXICATED!

Last night was pretty fun. I was pretty silly.

Lokos are INSANE. So much alcohol in one can?! WTF?!

Luckily for my liver, next Monday is the last night of Pong at Rory's.

but you better bet your ass I'll be there! Yeaaah! :]

Ah well, Rancho was bumpin' last night and it was prettyyyy awesome.

Can't wait for this weekend. It is destined to be freaking amazing...

People to Invite:

DUH:
Nicole (IT'S HER BIRTHDAY!)
& Cindy

San Jose People:
Ryan
Brytnny
Alec
Julia
British Jon
Sarah

Rancho People:
Alex

ANNNND ME!

That'd be 10 people. Good sized party. Sounds excellent.

LET'S DOOOO IT!

PS: People from SoCal, you guys are more than welcome, I just don't expect anyone to fly out to Rancho for a weekend party. YOU GUYS KNOW I LOVE YOOOOU!

FUCK I'M SO EXCITED

ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG RYAN AND BRYTNNY AND NICOLE AND CINDY ALL IN THE SAME WEEKEND?! AND LAKE! LAKE! LAKE! I'LL MAKE FREAKING HAMBURGERS!!

IT'LL BE SOOOOO GOOD!

OHMYFREKINGGOOODD

GOING TO BE THE BEST WEEKEND EVER. NEED TO FIND ALEX SO I CAN GET US SOME EXTRA FUN!

IF NOT, OH WELL.

...OR WE CAN GET SUPPLEMENTAL FUN FROM SOMEONE ELSE!

CAPS IS COMPLETELY NECESSARY TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I WILL, AND IN CASE IT DOESN'T HAPPEN 100% LIKE ABOVE, WOULD, LOVE THIS WEEKEND.

YEEEEEEEEES.

THE PLANNING BEGINS NOW.

Gotta Stop Bein' SO LAZY!

and respond!

I need to write long, loving, beautiful thank yous and OHMYGODILOVEYOUs and all kinds of stuff... some people just amaze me to no end...

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People have made me feel better about college.

Lots, lots better.

And they need to know it MOAR!

Yeppity yep yep~!

Going to play Pong at Rory's tonight. Hella excited to kick it with Rancho peeps! Jacob doesn't drink, nor does he care for social situations. Might be an interesting night. Hopefully and hopefully not it will warrant another blog post tomorrow. We'll see. WE'LL SEE!

Also: I woke up at 2 PM today. Really gotta fix my sleep schedule. Gotta stop watching Doctor Who with my brother until 6 AM.

...but it's just so fun!! ARGH!

I think he finished Season 3 last night, and now he's watching 2... because he originally skipped it for some reason, and just watched Doomsday. Haha.

Oh, last night was hella legit, btw.

Had In-and-Out, saw Kylie, Kristen, and Brad! I'd of liked to talk to them more, but it would've been hella weird because Jacob doesn't really know them at all.

and after amazing delicious awesome foods, we watched Ponyo. Cuteexplosion type of film! ♥


directed by none other than
Hayao Miyazaki! *cheers*

My friends here have made it their mission to educate me on the awesomeness that is Miyazaki. We've already watched Spirited Away and Princess Mononoke! I'm super excited to see the rest of his films. I've loved them so far.

Ponyo was just freaking adorable. So adorable. Poor Ryan Miller couldn't handle the cuteness for a while, which, of course, lead to even more entertainment.

Oh yeah, went to College Group for the first time last night. Made me remember how much I enjoyed going to Youth Group a few years ago. The atmosphere is so nice, so peaceful, so all-encompassing and brilliantly comforting and safe. I like religion. It's a good way to get together, bond, and share experiences, life, and whatever else. Made me really happy, and relaxed my mind. Can't wait for next Sunday!

Tomorrow I'm planning to watch more Glee with Cindy. I would today, but today I'm not really moving so much until it's time for Pong. Yaaaay, hella days lazy Darlene! It happens. I'm sure she'll understand. Man... I really need to shower.

OH! One last thing: Blogging is cool.

Hurrrrderpderp OUT LIKE TROUT!

FFXI June 21 Update

HOLY SHIT SO MUCH STUFF

Gonna make a list of shiny stuff, so I don't forget what I'm going to be aiming for...

• Teal Saio
• Teal Cuffs
• Teal Slops
• Estoqueur's Collar
• Aceso's Choker
• Austerity Belt
• Cognizant Belt
• Tiresias' Cape
• Augur's Jaseran
• Augur's Gloves
• Augur's Brais
• Augur's Gaiters
• Neptune's/Aquilo's Earrings/Rings
• Owleyes
• Vivid Strap +1
• Savant's Treatise
• Witchsatch

That's amazing. Hasn't been an update in which I'm actually interested in what they're putting out in a long time. Haha!

GOTTA GET EXTRA MOOLAH IN BEFORE XIV COMES OUT! lul

New areas. Level cap is 80 now. Hrm. Intense shit, SE.

...but my internet atm is like, "HEY YOU CAN'T GET INTO POL TO SAVE YOUR LIFE! LOL"

Sooo, this update will have to wait a bit.

I like being a nerd. It's hella cool.

More Stuff I've Made!

...there's even more crap that I've made, but after takin' a gander in the old Photobucket, these are the ones... I'm good with posting here. :] Lots of FFXI signatures... (God knows that's not all of them, too!) and old stuff I used to use on MySpace... icons... stuff I've made for people, even Vanquish's old homepage... so much STUFF!

Older Wallpaper

...just never posted this one...

I edit shit all the time, I'm really surprised that not a lot of my stuff is in posts on here...

Hrm.

Anyway, Muse heart thing, in purple. Love it!

Desktop Wallpaper I Made!

Oooooh, he's so pretty, especially in purple! ♥

(If you don't know who this is, read my blog more, and listen to good music.)

The resolution is lower than I wanted, because Photobucket won't make things as big as I'd like them, and I use Photobucket to edit stuff, so, hey, I get owned.

Luckily, this still looks awesome, even if it's stretched out a little.

My natural screen resolution is 1366 x 768... hello widesreen!

Beautiful Man #10 - Billy Boyd

3rd man from LOTR! This is Billy Boyd, better know as Pippin! ♥ He's just so damn adorable, and silly, and I love the part when he sings the song "The Steward of Gondor." It's beautiful, and creepy, and done so well. He's my favorite hobbit, by far, and like a good fan girl, I'm excited when he's on screen! I honestly don't know what else he really does, but he has def been my desktop background before. This picture, even! Mmmmm... short people with hairy feet.

Beautiful Man #9 - Viggo Mortensen

Viggo Mortensen is the second LOTR man to grace my wall, and it is not without reason! But don't worry, dear reader, Gimili will not be an addition just because he's in the movies! Yet another super attractive older man... my Mom is always like, "ooooh!" when he comes on screen... or at least she was, God knows she'll prolly not watch LOTR again. Aragorn's character is played so well... and is so manly... and stuff. Oh well, this actor is awesome, and looks awesome. Woo!

Mooski #6 Boombox - The Lonely Island ft. Julian Casablancas

You need to see this. Just sayin. Doesn't matter who you are. Just watch. Same guys who did "I'm on a Boat."

Kind of Forgot:

Today is Father's Day.

Too bad I don't really have a dad...

and the last conversation that I did have with him consisted of:

"Hey, is there any way I can get a hold of your brother? I wanted to say happy birthday."

SURE DAD, CALL ME TO GET TO HIM, BUT NO HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALLS FOR ME.

~.~ Woo, Father's Day!

Blahblahblah, blahblahblah, fuck this shit, etc etc, blahblah.

Cool.

I guess though, for the sake of everyone else's dad, and I guess my own, considering he is alive, a person and stuff...

Happy Father's Day.

I Am Proud to Announce!

...that I, Darlene McCoy

have an (almost) fully functioning school girl outfit.

Just missin' some silly shoes, and some knee high socks!

I am so amused.

Also: in the process of school-girling it up, I have learned to tie a tie.

I am so proud.

This has been a boring day, but a glorious day!

Woohoo!

Thinking about wearing it to pong on Monday! Might be funny.

The negative to that idea is I might get raped.

Fuckin' Rancho!

Teehee! ♥

I'd also like to take this time to be like:
LOL I LOVE MY MUSE SHIRT 'CAUSE IT REEKS OF AWESOME!

S'good, s'good. S'all good, darlin'.

FUCKING RIDICULOUS CLIFFHANGERS

GAAAAAHHHH OMG WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TO THE DOCTOR AND AMY!!

WHY IS THERE ANOTHER WEEK TO WAIT!!

I KNEW I SHOULDN'T HAVE WATCHED THE FIRST PART OF THE FINALE TONIGHT!!

SHOULD HAVE JUST WAITED TWO WEEKS AND WATCHED THEM BOTH IN SUCCESSION!!

DAMN YOU STEVEN MOFFAT!!

MY BRAIN... IS GOING TO EXPLODE!!

AND I'D SAY A WHOLE LOT MORE, BUT HOLY MOTHER FUCK, SPOILERS!!

GAHHHHHH!! AIYEEEEEEEE!! O:

The Mess In the 'Cho

Ahhhh, home sweet home.

Such a bitter sweet home, right now.

Leeeeeeeeeet's roll back a few years, shall we?

This is one about Jacob.

Jacob Victoria.

Friend who's been trying to be more than a friend FOR-EV-ER.

K so, junior year of high school.

Sucked. Hardcore. I was alone most of the day at school, always sad, always feeling awkward, no matter how much effort I put into trying to be outgoing. Always too afraid of what people thought of me. (Not much different from now, really, eh?) I remember Ms. Davis' English class... man, I hated that class. Ms. Davis was awesome, and the class wasn't actually bad, but after Greg dropped out of it, I had near nobody to talk to, to smile at, to give me any sort of confidence. Maybe I could've shown someone I was interested in being friends. I feel like I did. Oh well. Junior year sucked. Hated being alone.

ANYWAY, after school, people would come over to my house. People always came over, that's what happened! Ever since like, the 6th grade, starting with our famous Wednesdays. (RIP good times) Annnnd Jacob just started showing up a lot. And he'd leave after everyone else, so we would chat for a while, bolster our friendship, and be happy. That was cool. Was really happy with that. I'd been so lonely at school that the additional time socializing was really good for me. The issue came about when he'd not leave until 8-9 PM, and I still had homework/a life to attend to afterward. (These are the days when I went to sleep from 10-11 PM) ALSO: I HAD A BOYFRIEND WHO WAS TRIPPING BALLS. Guys don't like it when their girls spend more time with another guy than themselves. Go figure. After a while, I guess the messages started showing up. The mass amounts of comments, or stuff like that on MySpace. And while flattering, and nice to read, messages from another guy, when you're already deep into a relationship, are just not healthy after a while. The guilt sets in, and your heart starts to break every time you see them. The thing is about Jacob is while he is weird, and kind of obsessive, he is a good guy, and just wants to love and be loved. He's such a romantic. Hehe! I am also, very romantic, and we both share a lot of common interests. And the thing is: I love to make people happy, so I continued to spend time with him. I just made sure he didn't come over more than once a week, so Greg would feel more comfortable. But in the end, I was finding myself trying to make too many people happy, and worrying about Jacob like I would worry about a boyfriend. He became a subject my mind wandered too far too much for my own good, and poor Greg's sanity. I wanted to make the poor kid happy. Always have. Anyway, in the end, I had to cut off all communication with Jacob. I couldn't handle it, Greg couldn't handle it, and he was basically tearing my relationship apart. That just would not do.

Now, it's a a few years later. I figured that we could possibly be friends again, because y'know, I like friends. I like to see people happy, and be happy with them. We started chatting again, and I was content, just like before. He really needed a friend, and I really needed a friend. We were excellent for each others health. A few nights before Spring Break, he texted me. He was basically a hot mess, and I was happy to be there for him. When I returned for break, we spent a lot of time together, doing a whole lot of nothing, and enjoying the hell out of it. I was really happy to have a old, and cherished friend back. But see, darlin', shit always goes wrong. After break, we just chatted through texts/facebook/whatever, and his feelings for me grew like muscles on steroids. They grew really fast, and really intense. It's not that I was unaware, and I had even previously warned him earlier on in the year, that if things got bad, I was going to stop talking to him again. I just... was unaware of how much those feelings had grown over being away from me. I didn't realize that when I got home, I'd have to deal with junior year Jacob all over again. He's... just like a prisoner... whenever that dog comes by with the key, he grasps and grasps and grasps for it... so desperate to set his heart free... it's really, really sad, and I wish I could cure that for him, but the only way to do so is to be with him, and I just don't feel that way.

So, after about a week of hangin' out in Rancho, chillin', and having a good time, Jacob and I got into a scuffle. And lord, I do not like to fight with people. Hate it. Hate telling them no, hate telling them anything negative. Honestly, I don't even remember what it was about. It was more of, "Do you want to hang out?" "No, I don't think that's a good idea without someone else around." which lead to questions. Always with the God damned questions. Questions you expect me to answer. Questions your eyes plead me to answer in the way you want. You think I've got my shit sorted out? Oh, I don't think so. They drive me insane. I get, and got frustrated with you that night, and I believe I still am. I don't want to break your heart, but if it's your heart, or my sanity, well, my sanity wins. Just BLOWS in the process that I can't get to know Matt/Aaron/Rory better, I guess. I'd say Chris too, but I know he doesn't like me sooo~! Yeah!

This time, there is no Greg. No boyfriend, no relationship, not even a hardcore crush. (There are cute boys in Santa Cruz though! WOO!) So I'm kind of scared. I don't have an excuse, I don't have a person to hide behind. I've got to deal with this on my own this time. And it was SO MUCH EASIER to deal with last time because I had Greg's support, and I was happy with him. Really happy. This time... no substantial blockade for Jacob to deal with... it scares me... because I am a person who will try to convince myself of feelings, in an attempt to be happy, and to make someone else happy. And I'm usually down to give people a chance, but with Jacob, if we went out for a week, it would prolly kill him if I broke up with him, which would prevent me from doing so for about a month, at least, prolly more, which in the end, is just wasted time. I don't know. There's no feelings. No relationship makes sense. Urrgg!

Bleh. There's just so much on my plate right now. I didn't even bite off this much; it was just shoveled upon my platter of issues, and now I've got to choke it down somehow.

Wasn't summer supposed to be relaxing? XD

Beautiful Man #8 - Adam Lambert

I'd listen to 107.9 the End's Wake Up Call every morning before class in high school, and boy did they talk about this man a lot! They always asked callers why they adored him so much, and all that kinds of junk. I did not really become aware of the awesomeness that is Adam Lambert until after he was done with American Idol. (I don't really like American Idol so much, anyway.) This guy blew me away. When I heard his voice, the insane pipes on this man, combined with such a pretty face, I melted. And when he did his thing on the AMAs, I was even more proud to call myself a fan of Adam Lambert. It's very simple: I LOVE WHO HE IS AND WHAT HE EMBODIES AND STANDS FOR. He knows what he wants, and he goes for it, and that's something to admire! Oh yeah, one more thing: the video for "For Your Entertainment" and the song in general is sex. He's my idol.

Though This Year Has Been Rough,

I've been blessed. I've met some people who are worth it.

Worth friendship, worth loyalty, worth trust.

SURE, it's not a large amount of people...
but next year will be different.

There will be happiness, there will be good,
there will be caring, and there will be kind,
there will be smiles, and only tears of joy
accompanied of course, by drunken nights in the meadow
when the only thing on our minds is how gorgeous the stars are,
and how lucky we are to be together.

Let's do it guys... let's be a family...
We've all been through a lot this year, so for our second,
let's pull it all together,
let's bring all the things we've learned about ourselves and each other
and create memories to trump our intoxicated nights under the stars...

Let's forgive, let's forget
Let's not hate, not fight
Let's party, my friends, all night! :]

Can we just smile? Laugh? Enjoy?

I think it's possible.

I'm willing to be happy. Are you, darlings? ♥

-- These good feelings have been brought to you by Kendal & Dylan. Thank you guys, so much!

Some New Links:

• Hot Chicks with Douchebags
• Shit Randy Hates
• AntiDuckface
• One Manga
  

Yeah, I like manga too!

Mooski #5 California Gurls - Katy Perry

Yeah, we're cool in California.

Thanks for telling the world, Katy Perry.

You're awesome. ♥

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CwE-SLnLkqY

Beautiful Man #7 - Orlando Bloom

Orlando Bloom has a baby face, and is therefore made fun of often. He is a man associated with being thirteen. But the thing is with Orlando Bloom, y'see - is he is LEGOLAS! YEEAH, Legolas. Freaking elf man. Hot elf man. AND A PIRATE. GOD I LOVE PIRATES. Yep yep yep. I dunno what else to say, really, he's just pretty. Good to look at. I had a poster of him as Legolas over my bed when I was like thirteen or fourteen. Was nice to stare at when I couldn't sleep at night. Man, I'm creepy.

Beautiful Man #6 - Johnny Depp

I love him 'cause he's a pirate. A really hot, smoldering, grimy pirate. God I love pirates. So why is this a picture of Johnny Depp as not-a-pirate? 'Cause he's freakin' hot here, too! Look at that man! Look at that piano! The only thing bad about this picture is the cigarette. Those aren't sexy. But man... oh man...

Beautiful Man #5 - Zach Braff

JD! Zach Braff is here because I love John Dorian. I love him, and Scrubs, SO MUCH! My brother and I bonded over this show. It's so funny, so entertaining, and sometimes it even makes you think! Think! AH! That's so weird! Scrubs has also made my heart break before... such a good show, so sad that this man is no longer on it. Anyway, JD = smokin' hot, so Zach Braff can take his place on my Beautiful Man Wall!

Beautiful Man #4 - Ewan McGregor

I loved Moulin Rouge with a passion when I first saw it in like, 2001-2002. Such a great film! Later, I saw Big Fish. Yet another great film. Then, I caught on to this actor. This beautiful, beautiful, amazing, awesome actor. I remember days when my best friend and I would watch Transpotting and Velvet Goldmine. Man. Yeah. Good days. Fuckin' middle school man, good times. Ewan McGregor is known for being naked. From what I know, he says, "Women have to do it all the time, so I do just to tip the scales a bit!" Oh, thank you!!

Beautiful Man #3 - Hugh Laurie

Hugh Laurie is a man that has become more attractive with age. I love how he portrays House, he's so wonderful! It's one of my favorite shows on television because of his acting! He's fun to watch, and so brilliantly sadistic. It's great, he's great! Woo!

Beautiful Man #2 - David Tennant

Oh my good fuck, that is a sexy ass Doctor. Doctor of what? I don't know. Who cares?! David Tennant is by far one of my favorite actors! So much personality in one man! The eyes, the eyes, the emotion. Oh my good lord! He does theater, too! HE WAS HAMLET!! I don't even know how he does it. Man, I love British television. Though, he's not on Doctor Who anymore. Mr. Matt Smith took over for Season 5! Ahhh, I hope he reaches the states soon!

Beautiful Man #1 - Matt Bellamy

Muse's leading man -- genius guitar player, lyricist, and can back up his work with vocals! Not to mention he is just about the most adorable thing ever. He bounces around on stage like a little kid at his birthday party! So much excitement, so much energy! So cute! Not only would I marry him for just merely his voice, but so would my friend Riley. That is some intense shit right there! I wish I could explain more about how much I admire this person, but, I can't. Not possible. Words fail me! 'Cause I'm silly and cliché, yeaah!

Gurfurlur the Menacing

Congrats to everyone on title! Woo!
...and thank God for not having to venture through reef! Teehee :3
Lag killin' this guy was freaking terrible.

Medusa

Congrats everyone on killin' her!
...too bad I forgot to take any SS of us actually killing her.
...but there's pictures of the group! And of us chillin' in her spot!