and you just can't stop crying
because you feel like you're worth nothing
and that you can't accomplish anything
and that you're an embarrassment to your friends, family, and education
too embarrassed to go outside
stress acne for five years
too anxious to talk to anyone face-to-face outside of the family
nervous about possibly going out this weekend
nervous about possibly not going out this weekend
nervous about telling other people possibly going out or not
nervous about calling driving lesson people
nervous about not calling driving lesson people
completely putting off dealing with student loans
wanting to hide... from everything...
will it help to put these words here?
or will I look back on this sadness
and wonder to myself if letting the world know how I feel
is an okay thing
I need to eat, and I have no hunger
warm water seems fine right now, because at least I'm drinking it
do I even deserve colder water?
I sure didn't have the ability to make it cold last night. Too sad.
Too stressed
by what - though?
Literally nothing. Nothing important.
Simply a brain telling me I am worthless
No matter how many nice words I hear
A brain telling me I am worthless
A face telling me I am ugly
Thoughts telling me I am too scared
maybe this will help.
maybe
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