Heart Hurts

I am so sorry. I never told you how much I cared. There were nights that I didn't tell you I loved you because I wanted to see your face light up. I wanted to hold your hands as it happened. But now... now I just kind of want to cry. To lose you would be so hard. But I'm scared and broke. I want to take it easy. I guess. I don't know if not falling asleep to your laugh will be worth it....
I'm sorry. I just want to try something new.
I love you... so much but I can't rely on the unreliable anymore.
I still wanted to write you that Sonnet. It's half done on my computer.
My heart hurts.