ANOTHER CREATIVE WRITING FRIEND

NOW THERE'S TWO

OH MY GOD,

WOOHOO~!

CREATIVE WRITING FRIEND!

OMGYAYOMGYAYOMGYAY

Let's see what happens here, eh?

Let's have a fabulous time,

and hella days hope we rhyme

'cause the world just rolls a whole lot cooler

when things go well together

HEEEEEEY~O!

Yo.

XD

Woohoo :]

Creepy Kyle Doesn't Like Me

D'AWWWWWWWWWWWW

XD

Halloween

The night has finally begun
it's a little dark, a little creepy
a little spooky,
a little
eerie.

I'm ready for action - ready to make my move!
I'm waiting
waiting
to get into
my groove.

I am set free!
and I start to prowl,
I set out on my quest
to uncover leftovers of the night's conquests

I'm blinded by my signal,
the glorious full moon,
oh, I know I'll be there soon.

My mask fits just right
not too loose, nor too tight,
I'm the perfect criminal, the best theif
I'm a beast in the night

I'll steal your heart - then I'll feast.

I continue my venture over the furry terrain
Can you hear the soft pitter-patters of my feet?
'cause I'm tryin' to be discreet.
I'm tryin' to be silent
I'm tryin' to be sleek

For I am a bandit,
I'm no mink!

Arrival at last!
My loot, it is vast,
Shiny and crinkly,
oh it makes my eyes glimmer,
but hey, that's how it goes--
'cause I'm a bandit
and I'm always a winner!

Tastes like victory,
oh it's so sweet,
peanuts and caramel,
chocolate and nougat,
oh!

I believe
that my mission
is complete.

Listen to the Melody

Pulse. Pulse. Pulse.
Beat. Beat. Beat.

Can you feel that rhythm?
Can you feel it in your feet?
Are your toes dancing?
Are your fingertips prancing?

Can you? Can you? Can you?

Stop.

A minute.

Just listen,
Just breathe,
Close your mind,
Open your soul,
and just listen.

Listen to the melody,
The song within,
Listen to the melody,

Listen to each note's flawless flow,
Become enveloped in an ocean of sound,
Let the chords intertwine,
Let their waves crash into you,
Relax your mind.

Become one with the notes,
Become one with your own musical world,
Let it uplift you,
Let it carry you to the places
Where eyes are of no use.

Listen to the melody,
The song within,
Listen to the magic born,
Of only the human heart.

Close your eyes,
Embrace the harmonies,
And fade away.

Your symphony is calling.

The Name - Ms. Hinkle

The apple,
that fruit that hit Newton on the head,
The apple,
that fruit that is so unbelievably red,
it reminds me of Cordova - CHS
reminds me of the dear friends I've left.

Now there's one particular friend--
one crazy soul to compliment mine,
and I've not seen her in such a long time...

but hey!
This is where the apple comes in again,
it's on a spit,
sizzling and crackling, over a dancing flame.

That dance is how a friendship came to be.
Kinda neat, though I know it's hard to see.

and the apple,
even after it's smoldering waltz,
is still red
and it can still surely bruise Sir Issac's head.
but now,
the once soft skin,
the membrane encompassing the juices within,
is not so smooth, or thin.

Is a roasted apple still the same?
It sort of reeks of only
smoke and ash.
The once gentle crisp
now has a lisp.
Oh! The apple's speech is impaired!

Now, the skin is leather, a diminished red,
it resembles something like the top of a cowboy's head--
Now, the fresh crackles are gone -
the apple is dead.
The smell of sweet spring no longer exists--
and yet,
science,
still persists.

Cindy and I -
in compliance
murdered an apple
in the name of science.

First Rain Recap

So, like, um,

it's about uh,

a

few

months

since First Rain even happened,

and I've been meaning to write about it for a while, 'n stuff.

Yeppp.

ANYWAY.

First Rain.

Epic.

So, the morning of the planned "First Rain,"

I put on my shiny red underwear.

They've got sequins on them.

BWAHAHAHAHA :]

They're kinda awesome.

So, I wore those all day to try and prepare myself for the night.

THE NIGHT, THE CRAZY EPIC NIGHT THAT WAS TO COME!

Well, that worked.

I was debating if I was actually going to run First Rain all day,

but the red underwear

and Allyson

and Julia

and Ryan

all helped me decide that taking my clothes off and running around the forest in the rain at night

...was a good idea...

AND IT WAS.

...what?! XD

AWESOME!

Anyway, around, like, 10 PM,

it started raining again,

and good lord, it had been raining hardcore earlier that day,

so First Rain was def going down

down down down ↓

Yep!

SOOOO, I brought up a towel to the lounge,

...and left it there...

for later...

then, I got left behind...

XD FAIL!

So I ran downstairs, with my clothes still on and stuff,

and got out to the Porter quad,

where I saw masses of naked people

Oh, I love Porter.

I found Allyson, Ryan, Julia, and the other people we were running with: Casey, Rayne, Asher, and Cooper

They're all good friends of mine now. :]

So, uh, I took my pants off...
...and my shirt...
annnnnd

then I was standing in the Porter quad, half naked.

Cool.

I had Allyson take my bra off,

and then

it started.

HOLYFUCKNAKEDRUNNINGPEOPLEPARTSMOVINGWHOOOAAAA

...it was fun... :]

We ran up through Kresge, where we were joined by many people,
'cause Kresge is actually cool 'n stuff.

The streets were lined with those who wanted to see the awesomeness that was naked running people.

The awesomeness, it was so intense.

We continued running, and uh,
Vans
don't really have all that great of traction
so
um
I kinda
slipped
a few
times
and stuff

:(

The group actually moved fairly quickly, so uh,
I kinda couldn't breathe and stuff
and...

y'know

there was that uh

giant splint on my arm

'cause my hand was broken!

It was covered in a giant trash bag,
and Riley had wrote

"ARM CONDOM" on it :]

It's on my wall now, it's so awesome!

Anyway, that kinda slowed me down a bit

so I ended up at the back of the pack
with the chick with the viking hat on

She's from my hall. Really nice.

and we just kinda took
a shortcut or two
and enjoyed a naked stroll
through UCSC~!

It was freakin' fatabulous!

We caught up with the group and eventually ended up at Opers

which is the gym-type place
that has an Olympic-sized swimming pool

that a whole shit load of naked people might've jumped over a fence to swim in

Wet. Naked. People. Running. WTFFF

Then I lost my viking friend for a little, but ran into Liz!

Who was a little schwasted, but oh man, I think she was content with life.

After that we ran through the bookstore area, and got a little lost...

and I found Julia and Allyson again!

...then I lost them, again.

Deeeeeeeerp.

Uuuuhhh... then we were heading back to Porter

and I ran into my roommate!

and she was like HEEEEEEEEEEEY

and I was like HEEEEEEEEY

It was great.

Then we were in like a naked circle of awesome, chanting "Nudity is unity!"

and Ryan was there!

in his pea-coat

which I found to be oh so amusing.

Then

then...

I had a moment.

A wonderful, beautiful, amazing moment.

I felt free.

I felt beautiful.

I felt amazing.

I was amazing.

Being naked with a lot of other naked people is really fun.

Well, we finally got back to Porter,

and I got my towel from the lounge

and turned around to see Asher's GIANT FUCKING HORSECOCK

Then we had a shower party!

There's nothing better than showering with your new friends to learn how to be comfortable around them!

Woohoo~!

The shower was so warm.

We were in the handicap stall in B5 center... so we had like 6 or 7 people in there.

Someone had the shower head thing, and that person was all just kinda spraying us down.

It was. So. Awesome.

Then we went to the dining hall in our pajamas.

'Cause we could.

and we had a wonderful and amazing feast.

Then we all kinda passed out.

FUCK YEAH FIRST RAIN!

It was an amazing, awesome, and fantastic experience I'll never forget.

and daaaaaaaaaaaamn dude, I can't wait to do it again next year!

Labels Done-ish!

Horrraaaaay :]

...that was an odd look into the past...

and I'm so embarrassed that FFXI is still my largest label...

Meh....

I feel somewhat accomplished.

Working

...on labels for the blooooggg!

Darlene on the Radio!

...AWESOMEE!

That was so much fun, thanks for sending me the number, Stephen! ♥

I hope I made your show more or less entertaining :]

Creepy Kyle Likes Me!

D'AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Currently

I'm rocking out to Bad Romance

(Lady Gaga don'tcha know?)

N A K E D.

FUCK YEAH ROOMMATES ARE GONE FOR THE WEEKEND XD XD XD

:]~!

IT'S RILEY'S BIRTHDAY!!

OH SHIT
OH SHIT
OH SHIT
OH SHIT

P-A-R-T-Y~!

...except it's next weekend

'cause he's gonna go see his girlfriend this weekend (D'AWWWWWWW)

BUT WE WILL PARTY

AND IT WILL BE SUPER FUCKING INTENSE.

Especially 'cause I can throw down shitty vodka now...

XD YEEEEEEEEE!

I'm Awake

Right now.

...and I'm really happy. ♥

OH SHIT!

Smiling again :]

Breakfast today... was really good.

Teehee~! ♥

Now it's time to READ for this creative writing class of mine...

dodododododo

Urrrrghhh

I feel... really terrible tonight...

doing that... isolation... thing again...

...even VH1 didn't cure my feelings of... blah... tonight...

... n'est pas bien...

I dunno why I feel so bad anyway...

I just... kinda... do

and I've felt like throwing up again...

Mmmmm... I'm going to go to sleep soon...

Gonna get up at like... uh 9 or 10...

Eat... go to the bookstore... buy reader...

do homework...

go to physics...
go to Living Writers...
go watch musicals...
go to Late Night Noms...
and go to sleep...

Blaaarggg... I need something to cheer me up...

but I'm kind of in this rut, again

where I think that something is someone

:(

It's not Marc.

Marc is a thing, and a person, of the past now...

I still get kinda jittery around him, but mostly 'cause what happened between us was pretty freakin' awkward...

...and I've mostly given up on the guy from College 8...

I don't know if I ever really liked him anyway...

I feel really awful about Tanner, too, but I kinda know it was for the best.

I kinda wish I hadn't been so... quick about it... but he kinda asked for it, and I kinda told him what was up...

Now I've gotten a text

from a friend

whom I do like to be around quite a bit

"You're kinda cute."

Hm.

I dunno what I think about this yet...

'Cause, uh, the last time I went for something like this...

well,

um,

intense shit?

I dunno dude. I just dunno.

The only thing I do know right now is that it's about 1 AM, and I should really get some sleep.

Sleep... is beautiful. ♥

Random Thought:

I really want a freakin' lightsaber...

It's so Strange

...I think I'm going to be single this Valentine's Day...

*shrug*

<>< RAP!

I really, really, really, really, really

...need something to write about... :(

Article, come to me, come to meeee!

Collage Poem

Oh! Darling,
I will ask you this:
Can you spare a kiss?
Could you toss an embrace?
I'll be anything you ask and more

Oh! Darling,
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
and oh!
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

Oh! Darling,
if you leave me,
I'll never make it alone,

and Darling,
This fear of lonely has got a hold on me,
So, Darling, I hope you see
by my broken phrases,
just how much you mean to me

My heart is under arrest again,
and I foresee no natural end

So Darling,
I'll live and I'll die
Hooked on you, my star,

and Darling,
I will be chasing your starlight
Until the end of my life.

Starlight - Muse
Undisclosed Desires - Muse
Oh! Darling - The Beatles
Semiotic Love - Blaqk Audio
Best of You - Foo Fighters
1901 - Phoenix
Death - White Lies

Repetition Poem

I smile
I laugh
I giggle
I glee

Then you notice me~

I'm confused
I'm shocked
I'm flattered

Then I agree~

Kiss.
Bliss.

Pause.

Think.
Think. Think. Think.

I frown
I cry
I'm scared
and I've got no idea as to why

I panic
I grow weak
No longer can I speak

Then it ends.

WOOSH.

Oh Hey,

I got a mouse yesterday.

His name is Smokey.

He's cuuuuute~! ♥

and by he, I mean she,

'cause it's a girl...

HOLYFUCKFINALLY

Done with new layout... which isn't really all that different...

but I like it so much more!

SO MUCH MORE!

:]

Also:

The Muse nerdy-ness is kinda consuming my soul,

but I just really like their album art, AND I really like their album!

...so whatever...

IT'S MY BLOG! MY PIECE OF THE INTERNET!

I Really Feel Like

This blog needs a makeover again...

It's.... kinda... too pretty... for my language...

it... needs to be more... crazy... :]

"Later"

Okaaaaaay~! This is a continuation from my last post~!

This. Is. Later.

Teehee~ :]

Okay, so, uh

Yeaaaah...

My birthday weekend was really awesome,

had a great time,

had a feast at 9/10

Ryan ate noodles covered in Mountain Dew

Kendal gave me PCP (YES, SHE GAVE ME STRAIGHT FUCKING PCP IN A CAN)

we played Apples to Apples

the paramedics were called 'cause SOMEONE got a little too schwasted... (not necessarily a good thing here...)

...and a lot more insanity...

funny shit dude... XD

then, after eating at 9/10, we went back and like,

listened to some jazz

I fucking love jazz....

*brief pause to take in the awesomeness that is jazz*

paaaauuuussssssse

... just a little more ...

...

..!

....~!!

OKAY!

Anyway, after a weekend of fucking awesome,

Well,

we had class 'n stuff

and after class

Tanner said he was going to lay down for a bit,

so being the good girlfriend I thought I should be,

of course I went with him

so we were just there, kinda like chillin'

doin' the whole laying down in bed thing...

and then he kinda fell asleep...

and I was kinda like...

"OH FUCK, I'M REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THIS"

Like... I don't know why, more or less, just

something made me not want to be there,

...it was weird... and mostly sad...

'cause, like, Tanner didn't really do anything wrong...

I just... tripped balls in that instant,

and well, he's kind of a persistent person,

and he woke up and was like

HEEEEEEEY! What the hell is wrong with you?

and of course:

"Nothing."

I... lie... too often...

but... I'm a bad liar, so, like...

If I say nothing... it more or less means, "Something you really don't want to hear."

... but persistent people are persistent...

:(

So, I ended up telling him what was wrong,

and like,

you can't really go back after you tell the person you're with you're uncomfortable laying in bed with them... ha D:

Anyway,

after a day of him moping and whatnot, or something

Er... hmmm...

I dunno, just, like, a few days later, maybe...

He came to get me for class...

and we had a little...

"It's officially over" conversation...

...so that's what happened there...

*shrug*

but see, darlings, that's some pretty intense shit...

except not.

DerpDeDerpDerp

I feel much better now.

SOLIKE, lots of shit has happened.

Like, lots, of, shit.

But Cameron is here being a dork.

'cause he's dorky and stuff.

Reading

this

stuff

stuff
stuff
stuff

MAYBE I should write a poem

using stuff

as my repeating word

'cause I kinda have to do that anyway

DAMN YOU POETRY

:)

Actually, I've got to write two poems,

and read some stuff

but I like the reading, the writers are good,

and it's not like, analytical reading, I can actually enjoy it!

But I think Cameron's bored now...

SO!

He will continue to do his work,

and I'll tell you, oh dear blogger,

what has been going on with my life

considering that, uh,

I kinda said there would be some INTENSE FUCKING POSTS after Jan 4th,

and it's um,

kinda

like

Jan 17th

...! Only a few days 'til Riley's birthday!

Oooooh~ That'll be so fun~! ♥

Oh, I'm 19 now.

Cool.

Right!

Only Dylan is older than me :/

Deeeeeer.

Music makes me really happy

Mark makes me really happy

LIFE MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY!

Cameron Cameron Cameron,

I see you there..!

OKAY, SO FINALLY,

INTENSE SHIT

Okay, so

over winter break:

I went to a party
and uh
kinda sorta
really
flirted with a guy who got punched in the face (better known as KB'd) by my friend, Katie Butler

Getting KB'd is kinda self-explicable now, don't ya think~?

I think so.

My friend Alex also went streaking.

Yep.

That was funny.

Like, really, freakin', funny.

I ended up staying the night that night,

at my friend's ex-boyfriend who got punched in the face's house..

We watched Up, that cute little Disney movie about an old man, a boy scout, and a dodo bird, and some other crazy stuff...

Yeah, well, that was kind of an interesting party.

Pretty good, I know I enjoyed myself.

KSO,

After that, that Sunday, I believe,

I went to Hooters to watch a UFC match with some of the Rancho guys,
and some of the Rancho girls, but mostly just Kaylin...

I'm really not sure if that girl even likes me... haaaaaaaaaaa~

Well, I ended up paying waaaay too much compared to everyone else,

SO

No more Hooters with Rancho kids.

Fuck. That. Shit.

Yeppity-yep-yep~!

OKAY, SO THEN,

I got home from Hooters, and went out with Rory, Aaron, Matt, and Jacob,

just the usual Denny's thing, it makes me really happy
Rory's ex-girlfriend was there, made it even more hilarious/awkward.

Good times, OOOOH good times.

Aaron left after Denny's..

So me, Matt, and Jacob ended up at Rory's house at like 1-2 AM somehow, and nothing really interesting happened...

just chillin'-ness

oh and he had a PURPLE VIOLIN

I'd of probably bought it off of him if it was a purple viola, though..!

oh and he played the Unicorns, which made me miss college more.

Good lord, I missed college so much over break

SOOOOO MUUUUCH!

Okay, so like,

for the actual intense shit.

:]

ONE DAY, I WAS ON FACEBOOK.

*dramatic intense shit pause*

*DUN DUN DUUUUUN*

Deeeeer... okay.

....

So yeah, I was on facebook, bein' a loser and chatting with people from college 'n stuff...

One of those people happened to be my friend at the time, Tanner

APPARENTLY, he liked me.

APPARENTLY, I was like

...wtf?

K so, see, this was an interesting concept for me,

'cause, like, my amazing friend Allyson had dated him before,

but... I said okay anyway...

'cause I figured it was worth a shot 'n stuff

and it was..!

So, he and I continued to talk quite a bit over break,

Actually, I think every night except for like, one...

I dunno, I don't remember all that well

Break mostly consisted of me trying to suppress boredom with freakin' Starcraft

(I totally beat it..!)

and, uh, music,

(Mark and Juliaaaa~ ♥)

and, uh, HOLYFUCKGOODLORDSOMUCHFAMILY,

and, uh, insane video chats

TokBox.... YEAAAAAAH BOYYY :]

K SO,

back to Tanner!

We decided it'd be fun to surprise the people in the lounge with our new relationship-type-thing...

and it would've been

...if the people in the lounge thought that the relationship-type-thing was a good idea...

....but they didn't.

THEN, I was a total jerk to my BFF in the whole wide world, Mark.

I like, cuddle-iled him...

Twice.

FUCCCCCCCCCCCCK I'M A BAD PERSON.

Ryan just got back from San Jose.

That makes me really happy!

WOOHOO

Ok, so

Yeah, I was a really bad person.

THEN, I went to the gym with the girls and we talked.

A lot.

A LOT LOT.

Intense talking, 'n stuff.

I ran a mile, too~!

(I love to work out :D)

Heeeeeeeeeey-o!

Anyway, after talking with the girls,

the most trusted, the best

the Kendal, the Julia, and uh, Mark was there

but most of the time he was just kinda... still mad at me for being a jerk

God, I felt so awful... :(

but!

Julia and Kendal said that it was probably a bad idea,

and I'd talked to Allyson earlier that night,

and she said it was a bad idea, too.

and I'm sure Allyson's a little biased, but I think she was just being straight up honest with me because we're friends

and that's kinda what friends do, 'n stuff.

I love her! :]

So, that was like, Thursday,

or something

then it was my birthday...

so I enjoyed the hell out of that

like, a LOT

Got hella days stoned with Ryan

went to College 9/10

and had a FEAST!

(More details lateeeeer!)

But anyway,

I'll say more later.

Later.

Yeppity-yep-yep!

Symphony of the Blue Roses

In the depths of my imagination
mystics do grow
they are blooms of a fantastical world
now tell me:
is there a reason
why
these dreams do not exist?

Oh blue roses,
on each petal hangs one of my hopes,
If you can be imagined
can you be created, can you be found?

Oh blue roses,
are you merely a fantasy,
a silly product of far too many daydreams?
Why is it that I cannot climb your stalks?

Each day,
I exhaust my strength,
I exhaust my mind,
I attempt to give life to my dreams,

I want nothing more than to see your petals,
soft and milky,
I want to see them whispering in the wind
whispering a sweet melody,
a melody of life, of love, of labor,
a melody of my world

I want to immerse myself in the symphony of the blue roses.

and so,
Each day,
I exhaust my strength,
I exhaust my mind,
I attempt to give life to my dreams,
and I'll be damned if I ever stop.

Fixing Things

Oh dang. This is gonna suck.

I feel bad but

I think after, I'm going to feel so much better.

...and a lot more comfortable with myself.

Intense Shit

Will be fixed..!

THEN maybe some epic posts?

Maybe.

It's the weekend...

Who wants to be writing a blog?

When they can party like a crazy bitch?

In-Class Assignment #1 - Creative Writing

Alienation
As joyous as puppies and cyanide
A poison that slithers into a soul
turning an optimist to a cynic
in only one night's whole

Alienation
As perplexing as the idea may be
A hypocrite I see
in a man who denies the experience
of the lonely

Alienation
A test for brittle hearts
A challenge for weak souls
Can a man survive
on his own?

OH!

Darling, I hope so.

ohGodohGodohGod

panicpanicpanicpanic

>.<

I feel dirty.

I Don't Know

...if I am okay...

Scottles

Long time friend and basically brother of my best friend, Cindy.

Going to the sandbox (Iraq)

Pray for him!

I will be..

Along with my uncle and cousin...

Oh Yeah...

Happy New Year everyone! Hellllloooo 2010!

Or as the sophomores liked to call it -

TWO-OH-OH-TEN

Bwahahahhaa XD ♥

Do I have any New Year's Resolutions?

Maybe work out a little more.

(For health reasons)

and keep up my grades.

...but that's about it.

Why try to change a life that's going so well~? :]

Ooooooh the Good News!

Two more days! Two more days! Jan 4th! TWO MORE DAYS!

:] :] :] :] :]

/dance/dance/dance

Going to get an interesting reaction.

But that's okay!

I Don't Sleep Anymore

I've pulled

so many

all nighters

in the last week

I think I may collapse

...but I don't feel tired...

'cause I do nothing

all day.

OHMYGOD, I MISS COLLEGE.