The Girlgasm.

OHMYGOD I'M SO EXCITED FOR TONIGHT HOLY BALLS SHITFUCK OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

:D :D :D :D :D :D

SO.

I'm sitting in Ryan's room. His band is here, and they're like, doing band stuff.

I'm just sitting here.

With the biggest smile on my face...

oh my good lorddddd

his voice ehehehehehehehe <3

EHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHEH

I'M SO EXCITED

also his pants

yep.

good pants.

nyahahahahaha

I HOPE YOU READ THIS LATER RYAN 'CAUSE YOU LOOK FUCKING HOT

...but I've already said that a "few" times today.

I'm just so excited.

:D This is so awesome!

Oi I am going to be so hungry... hahahaha...

This post is entirely pointless... but being written anyway.

I hope I look good. I think I look good.

GODDAMN YOU GUYS SOUND GOOD.

nyahahahahaha! :D

OI I am gonna check Guildwork. 'Cause I want to. I may come back to this.

Man you're so hot.

hahahahahahahaha

There's Always So Much I Want to Say

but somehow, I can't seem to just sit down and blog right now. It's annoying. I like blogging. :(

In other words: I am so happy to be in a relationship again! Everything is fan-fucking-tastic. ♥

It's Just the Small, Simple Things

...that make me so happy. That let me know you care.

It's fucking awesome.

There's Nothing Like the Feeling

...of falling for someone new. ♥

Post 700

↑ Just so you know.

All I can really think to say right now is I am incredibly happy.

It has been a very long two years.

But this... this is so worth it.

The face... the smile... the goofy grin... so many things. So many things are right in the world right now.

It's one of those feelings that is sappy and cliche and silly, but y'know, man. Just so happy.

How can a person express how happy they are in mere words? I don't fuckin' know. I just try.

Try and try and try and try. That's all I can do. That's all I ever do.

And every once in a while, all that damn persistent hard ass work pays off.

God, I'm just so happy. So happy. I could cry. I really could, but I'm not going to. My brother will prolly make fun of me. Hah.

So I've not really been blogging a whole lot recently. Don't exactly know why. It's not Tumblr. Tumblr is a time kill. A silly, silly, silly time kill that happens to have lots of cute animals on it.

(Love cute animals!)

GOSH BUT I DON'T EVEN CARE 'CAUSE I'M SO DAMN HAPPY.

It's just like,

that feeling,

you get,

when you look into someone's eyes,

and you cannot help but smile,

can't think, can't do anything else,

because they've made such a wonderful impact on your life,

and silly words cannot express how... just simply how grateful you are that you got the chance to meet them,

and y'know, be in their life, too.

Man. Just so happy. So happy. SO HAPPY.

I miss him. But it'll be okay. It'll be good.

I'm so happy. So happy.

This is all for you. You are the cocaine in my veins, and the acid beneath my wings. :D

BWAHAHAHAHAAHAH

Good night word, I'll see ya in like 12 hours when I wake up.

Gotta see Cindy tomorrow, I think!

Oh and Churchy people, too! Yahoo!

It's Going to Be Really Hard

to express how happy I am in coherent words...

so I'm just going to sit here and make weird noises instead.

adbjfwwiuarhg;kfbvak;ebrg NER NERRR NERRR

:) <3

Dunno What to Do

Dunno what to say~

but I'm super-duper happy and can't hide it~

Eh?

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalaa :DDD

Education Day 1!

SO! The kids came into class today. First time. LOVED WORKING WITH THEM. SO FREAKING CUTE OMG WOOOOOW.

One little girl just attached herself to me. Full on body hug. I melted.

BLAAAAAAAAAH DON'T WANT TO WRITE RIGHT NOOOW

(Continued)

I remember when the kids first walked in -- second graders have got to be the cutest things in the world. Their excitement and energy just set me off! I was instantly about fifteen times more elated than I was the minute before. Participating with them was just so much fun -- I saw so much joy on their faces. It was quite possibly the most memorable hour this year.
Our program could have gone a little better, but coming up with a new plan entirely on the spot is sort of hard. I'm pretty sure the group before us was supposed to do sequencing/warm up and all that jazz, but they added what we were going to do at the end of their segment, which totally threw us off. It was really embarrassing to be unprepared, and upsetting that we had to change our fairly solid plans that we had formulated down to the wire on Tuesday. Luckily, it wasn't a total fiasco, and we pulled through somehow. Our music worked really well, to my great satisfaction, so that was nice. Ryan did an excellent job teaching everybody his group's plans for creative work. It was really nice to see him excel. :)

WELL

Turn of events.

Darlene is sooooo bi-polar.

MWAHAHAHAHAH :DD

Thanksgivins! :DD

Ooooooooh man, what a GOOD BREAK.

Get home Weds around like, 8. Did nothing. Only boring day of break... hah

Turkey Day: went to some neat ass hotel built in the 1800s in Volcano. Ate hella good food. Had an exceptional time with Mom, Marc & Waylon... Went to Denny's with Matt, Chris, and Jacob. Had a grilled cheese filled with mozzarella sticks dipped in cheese sauce. HomyGod, delicious heart attack, go! Went to Rory's to say hi after. Watched Aaron dance. (HE'S SO WHITE ♥ XD) Enjoyed self until random douche dude and his friend showed up. Left and went to sreeps.

Black Friday: went to the outlets. Made out like a bandit. Prolly spent too much money. Bought pants that didn't fit. URRRGH! Had an awesome time with the BFF, Cindy. Missed her so much. Went back to her place for a bit, said hi to the wonderful Specert family, and then went out for delicious delicious sushhhiis! 11 people showed. (Me, Jacob, Bree, Chelsea, Aaron, Matt, Chris, Ryan Miller, Matt Smolich, Ryan's sister Rachel, & Dean!) I felt super special. Ryan Miller's sister is a SLUG! We had a great time chatting about UCSC-esque things. Super happy. Love the neon lights and glittery purple post things that hold up the ceiling. Awesome times were had. People left sushis and went off to party. Smolich, Jacob and I went back to his place and played some Crystal Chronicles. Boob Squad > life. Really glad I finally got to meet Smolich, he's hella cool. Chris showed up at Jacob's later and MineCrafted his heart out. The entertainment, it was so intense. Passed out around 2.

Saturday: went to Sunrise Mall to get my hair done. My hair person is the greatest, ever. I've got to learn how to drive for her. Haircut is hella cute! Mom bought me my Christmas present early -- a purple and black plaid skirted peacoat. Yeah motherfucker, it's awesome. :D Went back to Pac Sun to return jeans that didn't fit, got three pairs (instead of two) for twenty dollars more, and fell in love with the store's manager. Hella good deals yaaay! AND NOW I HAVE PANTS THAT FIT. OMG. Got home around 3-ish, I think, and finished Logan's friendship bracelet. Then went sock shopping with Jacob... ate delicious delicious pizza at Cheeser's, then Chris met up with us. We all went back to Jacob's, watched some anime... and then Aaron showed up. After, went to Taco Bell. Did not eat Taco Bell. Then went to go pick up Matty out of butt-fuck nowhere. Srsly. Got kind of car sick on the way, and it took about an hour. You're lucky we love you so much, Matty! Went back to Jacob's. Matt and Chris left to get cars/controllers. Aaron watched Jacob play MineCraft, I went through Matt's iPod pictures. Midnight. Matt and Chris return with their bounty. We Vesperia. We destroy balloons. WE PULL OUR HAIR OUT TAKING RIDICULOUS ORDERS AT 3 IN THE FUCKING MORNING. We are rewarded with French maids and kitty cat costumes. Victory is achieved. Vesperiaing continues until 4:30 AM. Pass out at about... 5:30 AM.

Tales of Vesperia!

Sunday: Wake up around noon, fuck that shit, wake up again around 1:30. Had a dream about a boy. (!) Shower, dress, internet, 4:00. Go shopping for foods for potluck with Jacob. Buy salad and green beans. Make green beans at home, add salt and pepper and make them amazing! Watch a little terrible television, and head out to College Group. Arrive at College Group, proceed with hella days hugs and greetings. SO HAPPY TO SEE EVERYONE! Chat while the finishing touches and other stuff goes on. Play with Charlotte ♥. Eat the fuck out of some turkey, after saying grace of course! HAH! Eat the fuck out of some lemon custard pie. Dean is the greatest. Make postcards for poor 10 year old girl with terminal cancer. Feel good about possibly making her life a little more happier. Give more hugs, roll out. Home. End of break.

It was good. So good. :]

Can't wait to get back to SC tomorrow and see my beautiful people there. I feel weird not seeing some people for more than like, 12 hours. Like... y'know, the ones that live in my house? ♥

Gonna make Cory's bracelet tomorrow on the train. Prolly won't finish it, but it'll be done before winter break!

Passin' the fucccck out soon, gotta get up at 7:30... :/

Nighty, blog!

HEY YOU MOTHERFUCKS

Today is gonna be awesome.

'Kaaaaaaay?

Gonna go to music soon enough... give Riley his bracelet... (!)

then go to Lit, tell my TA that Cam is dying, give this poor girl her mutilated paper back,

eat some foods,

take Cam to the health center.

AND THEN WATCH THE WORLD SERIES! YAAAAHOOOO :)

It's not really going to be an exceptional day.

Just a good one. Good mood. Woohoo!

My Life is Okay.

Yep. Okay.

Not good, not great, not oh man, I'm rivalin' Santa's jollyness,

but it's okay.

So I don't get everything I want. That's okay.

Okaaaaaaaaay.

Blarg. Whatever! Ahaaaaaaa

I'm sick. Stupid plague.

BUT I still went dancin' last night. Was so fun. ♥

Though I'm sad Mark didn't really have a good time. More than likely just not his thing. I love him anyway. :)

Cory and I taught Logan how to dance. It was spectacular.

And Tanner was awesome to dance with!! SO FUN! :D

I sang myself hoarse. Ugh.

Typing is so much easier than speaking right now.

Oh God I just coughed on my laptop's screen. Hell dude... XD

I finished The Guild. :( Need something new to watch... prolly will do Firefly finally.

It's so weird, being in on a Saturday night. I feel like I need to be doing things. Or be nothere. It's good to take a break though, especially because my abs are going to be super ripped from coughing so much! Yeeeeeeaaaaah...

Ryan's off seeing Brytnny. I bet they're so adorably happy right now! I'm happy knowing that they're having a good time. ♥

So there's this guy in my dance class that's really cute and friendly, but I can't figure out if he's gay or not. lol. Everyone says it could be either way! ARGH! hah

Bleeeeeeeeeeeh... kinda don't really care anyway.

More things! Going to Fish Rap on Tuesday! Told James Shea I'd be there tonight. :] So exciting!! I LOVE FRL!

Oh. I can go to FRL! because I dropped stupid LALS 80G. Good prof., but too much work for me to want to take the class for just freakin' GEs. GEs are so damned easy to get, why stress myself out over a class I could give 0 fucks about?

Now I'm in Earth Catastrophes with Cam, Miguel, and Logan. So exciting. Even though I basically just sleep through it. Whatever. I liked the killer meteors movie. I WAS AWAKE FOR IT!!

Blah blah blah blah blah... blah.

D-hall sucked tonight. Fuckin' College 8.

Went to Sushi Totoro on Friday. Was fantastic. Tried mocchi (sp?) for the first time. So amazingly delicious. Gummy ice cream stuff omg yay mouth so happy...

I don't freakin' know dude. I'm just okay. Maybe I'd be happy if I weren't sick. Don't really know, don't really care, because I'm sick anyway! Woo....

Casey's big audition is tomorrow. I hope for everyone and the world's sake that she makes it. I feel like she's got a good chance, but yeah, it's all up to them.

I'm listening to Prince now. Love him. Especially 'cause we're dancin' to New Position in jazz dance. LOVE JAZZ DANCE.

Man, this is a lot of ADD rambling. Meh. Whaaaaaaateveeeeer. What else do I have to do? Right. Nothing.

I got a bodice today. Gonna rock Rocky Horror like a damned pro. It's gonna be so hot. Ehehehehehee. >:)

Yeah... well.... I think I'm done for now. Yep.

For the Lawls.

"Hey what's up you silly fuck?!"
"Don't call me a fuck!"
"...but you're my favorite fuck!"

*facepaaaaaalm

♥

College Year Two So Far...

Fucking-fan-tastic!

Honestly, I don't know what could go wrong right now.

Don't have to deal with any shit & roommates are legit!

(See what I did there!)

Well, one's a little creepy drunk, but whatever.

I think I could be considered a little creepy drunk...

Maybe...

Whaaaaaaateveeeer!

Okay so let's talk about THE FIRST DAY.

The first person I saw was none other than my Cameroon, who was wearing just about the coolest purple shirt I've ever seen. And y'know, I've seen a lot of neat purple stuff. I was so excited to see him I was SHAKING. Overreaction, much? Yes. Oh well. I love Cam!
Saw Tanner as I was carrying a bunch of pillows to my new found home (an awesome apartment, in Porter's G-UNIT!) and just basically yelled "TANNER!" and tried to look as happy as possible with uh... like 5 pillows in my arms. I ended up giving him a hug later.

I think I saw Alec next. After I called his little brother Alec. Ooops. That was minorly horrible. Then I started to see people one by one, I think I ran into Logan, and then Dylan and Cory... I dunno. Don't remember now. And for the record, Dylan gave me the best hug by far, but Cory was bringin' the heat. Not like she doesn't naturally, anyway, but yeah. You go girl!

And I've got to mention Logan more because he said he reads my blog and that made me smile!
Er... and by mention I mean I want to write something nice to tell him how much I appreciate him. 'Cause c'mon, everyone can use that right?

K SO! I met Logan in creative writing last year. We became fast friends because we bonded over all the crappy things going on in our lives... and y'know, we enjoyed each other's company as well. (Not to mention Josh and Dana's) Either way, we'd walk back to Porter from 9/10 or sometimes to Fish Rap (he'd go with me, and it made me so happy!) And I remember one night Mark, Cam and I were at Cafe Rev, and all of us ended up playing Pirate Life. Which consisted of awesomenss and ganging up on Mark and Cameron. YEEEESSS! Well anyway, after that fun, we all went back to the B5 lounge where everyone else was completely trashed. People drinking straight vodka out of coffee mugs, etc. We played Apples to Apples until like 4 AM, and after a night of intense fun and games, c'mon, you just gotta be friends for a while! Luckily, that happened. THEN, of course, 'cause I'm crazy as hell and prefer to sabotage my friendships apparently, I developed a crush on him... and he wasn't interested and he handled it very well! I am very appreciative of that, and we're still awesome friends because we both handled it right.

Anyway, that's a quick run-down on Logan. All you need to know essentially though is he's awesome.

So things I'd like to say:

You are seriously a really, really, really wonderful person and I'm so glad I got to meet you! I can't believe that anyone would ever think you to be an asshole. You were the first person at college who I felt like could really understand how it was for me at home... and our timing in meeting was near flawless. I'm so glad I made such a good friend when I was in such need! I was so upset about Mark, and you so... just angry that your people were treating you like crap, and we were each other's vent and it was so good! Because you didn't know anyone! I could bitch and whine and moan and say whatever the hell I pleased because somehow I guess I knew it was okay. I dunno. You were just a really wonderful thing that happened to me last year who helped me get through mindless bullshit, and I just wanted to let you know, since you read this, and you def deserve to be told how awesome you are more often. I have a lot of fun being your friend, because you're one of the most entertaining people I've EVER met, and I hope we have more years of... just plain 'ole happiness to come!

♥ Darlene

I always feel like I seem weird and kind of obsessive when I write on this blog, but honestly, I just care so much for people and I don't see anything wrong in letting them know. Wouldn't the world be a better place if more people did so, anyway?

Erm. Done with huge sidetrack. Aha!

Let's continue with the first day -- and by day I mean night, because the other parts of daylight consisted of me running around far too much for my own personal hygiene and lung capacity.

Anyway, our friends have a house off campus.
With a 7/11 next door.
We had booze.
We had friends.
There was excitement.
& we had fun.

And by FUN I mean Logan did the dishes at like 3-4 AM and cut himself with a cutco knife.

I dunno how that's fun, but we all had a good night!

I dunno what else exactly to say about that night, except for I got in to my apartment at 6:30 AM.

Was kind of proud of myself. Welcome back to college, eh?!

Monday I slept in. A lot. Then decorated my room. It looks rockin'.

Tuesday I spent a good part of the day grocery shopping with the friendlies. Then we went to the bookstore, hung out for a bit, and proceeded to go to the Boardwalk Frolic whiiiccch was lame as shit. I shall never attend it again. Also had to wait an hour for the bus to get to te metro that night. Fuck that shit. In the butt.

Weds was pretty sweet. Woke up early-ish, hung out for a while, went to Casey's, saw her awesome Halloween costume, told her I love her 'cause I do, and played some Shithead. Went back to my place to find Ryan preparing for his jazz audition (which of course, he did well on, duh!) Hung out for a big to find Cam, Tanner, Dylan and Cory at my door telling me it was time to see Scott Pilgrim. I'm so glad I went. That movie was phenomenal. So entertaining.

Which leads to some interesting developments!

After Scott Pilgrim, we went to the D-hall, ate the good noms, and went back to Tanner and Dylan's to watch Glee. I got to watch most of Glee. Most of it. Because Michael Block called me 5 minutes before it ended to tell me he was on campus to visit! EXCITING!

Anyway. Hung out with him until like, midnight. All was well. Really well. I might like him now well. Then it was today and I had to get up at the crack of dawn. Horray. Fuckin' class.
BUUUUUT Michael was back after class and that was exciting! Except he was bored. Because I'm a bad hostess (BUT A GOOD CUPCAKE!!) but that's okay. Then Cam and I had lunch, and I went to my jazz dance class, which was as amazing as I had expected it to be. Hell to the fuck yeah. Coming back from class I ran into Michael again!! And he came over again! ARGH SO EXCITED. But then Ryan came over and Michael seriously may like Ryan more than me. The broffection, it is so intense. He left around 6-ish, I think. I dunno. Nuffin' happened. Tomorrow he's coming around again, and we're going to go see Fight Club at the Del Marr and it's going to be awesome. Hello date night! Yahoo!

Anyway, college so far this year has been freaking amazing. So freaking amazing.

I'll update you more when I can, dear blogger, but I'm gonna have a metric shitton of work to do soon! Oh nooooooooooooess! :(

No Way In Hell I'm Actually Sleeping Tonight!

SO MOTHERFUCKIN' FREAKIN' EXCITED TO SEE EVERYONE TOMORROW OMG.

I like reading Kendal's blog. Ehehehehehe. :D

AND I like Kendal.

I can't wait to see her tomorrow! And Mark, and CAMEROON, and Ryan, and Liz, and Julia, and Dylan and Tanner and Asher and Pranov and Casey and Riley and Miguel and Rubnio and Jon and the rest of the Crownies and oh my GOD EVERYBODY and I'm so freaking excited THAT I might even be a little excited to see Alec. And Allyson. I hope we can not be crazy people this year and work things out. Or just like, y'know, pretend the other person doesn't exist if we can't. lol EITHER WAY. HOLY SHIT EXCITED.

I want an amazing hug from Cameron. He's really good at giving them!
I'm going to receive an amazing one from Dylan for sure though, he guaranteed it!

GOD I'M JUST SO EXCITED

AND GOING TO BE SO TIRED

GOTTA GET UP IN LIKE 5 HOURS

CAPS LOCK KEEEEEEEEEY

ONOMNONMNOMNOMNNMNONM.

Saved my last bowl of fruit loops for this morning.
And I've got an apple fritter.
And apple juice.

BREAKFAST OF CHAMPIONS, MOTHAFUCKAAA

o.o

This year is gonna be good.

So good.

I just can't believe it's finally here! I get to go back to SC! SO EXCITING!!

OH AND DEAR BLOGGER, DEAR DEAR BLOGGER,

KATIE BUTLER IS APPLYING TO UCSC.
KATIE BUTLER IS APPLYING TO UCSC.
KATIE BUTLER IS APPLYING TO UCSC.

There's going to be a second person from Rancho, bitches!

And I might possibly grow a backbone because of it.

She is my mentor in bitchy-ness... ahahahahha ♥

Man, I'm so excited. SO EXCITED.

Can't even think of different words.

Brain is too cluttered with OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

/dancedance~

Who WOULDN'T want to see these people again?! Ahahahaha!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATTY!

You're such a good friend and deserve all the wonderful things happening to/around you! I hope you enjoyed your 21st! CSUS was HELLAAAA BOMMMB.

Love always,
Darlene!

FUCK I'M SO EXCITED

ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG RYAN AND BRYTNNY AND NICOLE AND CINDY ALL IN THE SAME WEEKEND?! AND LAKE! LAKE! LAKE! I'LL MAKE FREAKING HAMBURGERS!!

IT'LL BE SOOOOO GOOD!

OHMYFREKINGGOOODD

GOING TO BE THE BEST WEEKEND EVER. NEED TO FIND ALEX SO I CAN GET US SOME EXTRA FUN!

IF NOT, OH WELL.

...OR WE CAN GET SUPPLEMENTAL FUN FROM SOMEONE ELSE!

CAPS IS COMPLETELY NECESSARY TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I WILL, AND IN CASE IT DOESN'T HAPPEN 100% LIKE ABOVE, WOULD, LOVE THIS WEEKEND.

YEEEEEEEEES.

THE PLANNING BEGINS NOW.

EXCITED

YUUUUUUUUM ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANNER!!

The day actually ended like thee hours ago, but..

Yeah, happy birthday! ♥

Yada Yada Yada

I want to make words dance!

Dance dance dance!

DANCE DANCE DANCE

Pourquoi?

'cause I feel freakin' awesome...

I want to make words dance 'cause like,

words are really good at conveying emotions,

and my emotion right now:

DANCEDANCEDANCE HAPPY YAY!

Abbey is coming to see me on Weds!

and my broski might be coming up to see me, too! ♥

AND AND AND

INTENSE SHIT HAPPENED!

but that intense shit,

shall be discussed later.

Much, much later.

Also, I love Mark.

Mark Delyani Sandwiches

WITHOUT MAYONNAISE!

oh and Riley.

Always love Riley.

MWAHHAHAHAHAHAHA ♥!