Your Ghetto Name:

lolI'mbored.

My name: Queshagurlobamanaytanay

My Life is Okay.

Yep. Okay.

Not good, not great, not oh man, I'm rivalin' Santa's jollyness,

but it's okay.

So I don't get everything I want. That's okay.

Okaaaaaaaaay.

Blarg. Whatever! Ahaaaaaaa

I'm sick. Stupid plague.

BUT I still went dancin' last night. Was so fun. ♥

Though I'm sad Mark didn't really have a good time. More than likely just not his thing. I love him anyway. :)

Cory and I taught Logan how to dance. It was spectacular.

And Tanner was awesome to dance with!! SO FUN! :D

I sang myself hoarse. Ugh.

Typing is so much easier than speaking right now.

Oh God I just coughed on my laptop's screen. Hell dude... XD

I finished The Guild. :( Need something new to watch... prolly will do Firefly finally.

It's so weird, being in on a Saturday night. I feel like I need to be doing things. Or be nothere. It's good to take a break though, especially because my abs are going to be super ripped from coughing so much! Yeeeeeeaaaaah...

Ryan's off seeing Brytnny. I bet they're so adorably happy right now! I'm happy knowing that they're having a good time. ♥

So there's this guy in my dance class that's really cute and friendly, but I can't figure out if he's gay or not. lol. Everyone says it could be either way! ARGH! hah

Bleeeeeeeeeeeh... kinda don't really care anyway.

More things! Going to Fish Rap on Tuesday! Told James Shea I'd be there tonight. :] So exciting!! I LOVE FRL!

Oh. I can go to FRL! because I dropped stupid LALS 80G. Good prof., but too much work for me to want to take the class for just freakin' GEs. GEs are so damned easy to get, why stress myself out over a class I could give 0 fucks about?

Now I'm in Earth Catastrophes with Cam, Miguel, and Logan. So exciting. Even though I basically just sleep through it. Whatever. I liked the killer meteors movie. I WAS AWAKE FOR IT!!

Blah blah blah blah blah... blah.

D-hall sucked tonight. Fuckin' College 8.

Went to Sushi Totoro on Friday. Was fantastic. Tried mocchi (sp?) for the first time. So amazingly delicious. Gummy ice cream stuff omg yay mouth so happy...

I don't freakin' know dude. I'm just okay. Maybe I'd be happy if I weren't sick. Don't really know, don't really care, because I'm sick anyway! Woo....

Casey's big audition is tomorrow. I hope for everyone and the world's sake that she makes it. I feel like she's got a good chance, but yeah, it's all up to them.

I'm listening to Prince now. Love him. Especially 'cause we're dancin' to New Position in jazz dance. LOVE JAZZ DANCE.

Man, this is a lot of ADD rambling. Meh. Whaaaaaaateveeeeer. What else do I have to do? Right. Nothing.

I got a bodice today. Gonna rock Rocky Horror like a damned pro. It's gonna be so hot. Ehehehehehee. >:)

Yeah... well.... I think I'm done for now. Yep.

Happy Birthday Blog!

You're offically 2 years old now!

Yay you!

Mooski #13 You Belong With Me -Taylor Swift

I've got such a soft spot for this girl. Really.
Also: video is hella cute. XD

I'm Fightin' My Feelings

...and it's not going so well.

My brain just doesn't understand... ug...

Songs I Want to Learn!

• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/m/muse/starlight_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/m/muse/bliss_acoustic_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/m/muse/cant_take_my_eyes_off_you_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/m/muse/endlessly_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/m/muse/hysteria_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/m/muse/supermassive_black_hole_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/m/muse/time_is_running_out_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/m/muse/undisclosed_desires_ver3_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/t/thrice/stare_at_the_sun_acoustic_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/a/ac_dc/you_shook_me_all_night_long_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/j/jimmy_eat_world/the_middle_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/j/jimmy_eat_world/pain_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/k/kaiser_chiefs/ruby_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/k/kings_of_leon/use_somebody_ver3_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/o/offspring/want_you_bad_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/f/foo_fighters/best_of_you_ver4_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/k/keith_urban/kiss_a_girl_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/t/thrice/artist_in_the_ambulance_acoustic_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/t/taylor_swift/you_belong_with_me_ver3_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/a/all-american_rejects/swing_swing_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/s/starship/nothings_gonna_stop_us_now_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/p/plain_white_ts/1_2_3_4_ver5_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/p/plain_white_ts/our_time_now_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/r/relient_k/best_thing_ver4_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/s/switchfoot/stars_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/0-9/30_seconds_to_mars/kings_and_queens_ver3_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/0-9/30_seconds_to_mars/the_kill_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/0-9/30_seconds_to_mars/vox_populi_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/b/blink_182/all_the_small_things_crd.htm
• http://tabs.ultimate-guitar.com/b/blink_182/first_date_ver2_crd_972766id_30072010date.htm
• http://tabs.ultimate-guitar.com/b/blink_182/i_miss_you_ver6_crd_987453id_13092010date.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/b/bloodhound_gang/bad_touch_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/m/metro_station/shake_it_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/t/this_providence/my_beautiful_rescue_crd.htm
• http://tabs.ultimate-guitar.com/y/yellowcard/only_one_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/a/adam_lambert/for_your_entertainment_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/a/adam_lambert/mad_world_ver4_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/a/adam_lambert/whataya_want_from_me_ver7_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/b/boys_like_girls/thunder_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/l/lifehouse/hanging_by_a_moment_ver4_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/l/linkin_park/in_the_end_ver2_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/t/taylor_swift/love_story_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/b/bobby_mcferrin/dont_worry_be_happy_ver4_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/b/bon_jovi/its_my_life_ver4_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/b/bon_jovi/you_give_love_a_bad_name_crd.htm
• http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/f/fountains_of_wayne/stacys_mom_ver2_crd.htm

Lit1 Close Reading #1

Darlene McCoy
Madeline McDonald Lane
LIT1
7 October 2010

Attitude in the Anders

Anders, the protaganist in Tobais Wolff’s short story, “Bullet in the Brain”, is a broken man. The loves of his life - simple words, phrases, passages - no longer bring him the joy they once used to. Anders is a book critic, and he does not take his job lightly. He is a man to be feared and abhorred in the literary world, for he, "dispatches almost everything he reviews with a weary, elegant savagrey" (190). Yet, even feared critics need to visit the local bank from time to time to take care of ordinary matters - it's just a shame that poor Anders had no idea that it would be his last.
At the opening of the short story, Anders is standing in a too large for reason line behind two women having a "loud, stupid conversation," and it puts him in a rather snotty mood. When the teller attending the giant line closes her position, one of the women turns around and makes a comment about it, looking for Anders' approval. Being the amazingly sarcastic person he is, Anders responds, "Damned unfair. Tragic, really. If they're not chopping off the wrong leg, or bombing your ancestral village, they're closing off their positions" (190). The woman turns around to look at her friend for her approval of her displeasure with Anders, but her friend’s attention is on others in the room. These others, men in blue suits and ski masks, approach the bank’s guard and put a pistol to his neck. The man holding the pistol yells across the room, "One of you tellers hits the alarm, you're all dead meat. Got it?" (191). Anders, once again, replies as any gutsy, snappy, sardonic book critic in the situation would, "Oh bravo," he says, "Dead meat,” and then turning to his already insulted lady-aquaintance from earlier, “Great script, eh? The stern, brass-knuckled poetry of the dangerous classes” (191).
As the robbery scence progresses, Anders continues to make his backhanded bitter comments, and they finally draw the attention of the man with the pistol. The man pushes the weapon into Anders’ stomach, which Anders notes because it tickles him, and instead of laughing, he fixes his gaze on the man’s eyes because he figures that laughing in front of a rather batty man with a loaded gun is not an idea that would be beneficial to the prolonging of his life. Because staring contests are somewhat awkward, the criminal asks Anders, in quite the vulgar manner, to stop. Anders looks down then, to the man’s shoes, which he also apparently does not approve of, since he then uses the gun to prop up Anders’ chin, forcing him to stare at the ceiling of the bank.
Anders, once again, on instinct, begins to criticize the art adorning the ceiling. He describes it as, “Even worse than he remembered, and [that] all of it [was] executed with utmost gravity” (192). He especially takes note of a scene in which Zeus and Europa are portrayed as a bull eying a rather scandalous cow. The cow’s “canted hips” and “long, droopy eyelashes” create quite the ruckus in Anders’ brain, and his amusement annihilates his attempts at a serious demeanor. The criminal detects Anders’ breaking of face, and demands of him, “What’s so funny, bright boy?” to which Anders replies, “Nothing.” The robber then adds, “You fuck with me again, you’re history. Capiche?” (192).
Anders cannot help himself. The poor man’s attempts to hold back his laughter finally prove to be futile. He bursts out laughing, and the criminal replies by raising the gun, and shooting the satirical best-seller slaughterer in the head. Ironically, Anders’ life flashes before his eyes - but he does not see his first love, his wife, or his daughter before the bullet exits his brain - he recounts only a memory from his childhood. He remembers the intense heat of a summer day on a baseball field, the local neighborhood boys chatting about something he perceived as so trivial it was oppressive, and a certain boy’s words. These words, these grammatically incorrect, piercing words, “They is. They is. They is,” echo throughout Anders’ brain during the last milliseconds of his life. He recalls his feelings toward them - how he was roused and elated by their total unexpectedness; how that unexpectedness was music to his ears. The bullet bids farewell to its delicate jelly-like obstruction, taking with it, its “comet tail of memory and hope and talent and love” (193). Then his life ends. Anders is no more.
Authors, writers, and poets do not always simply write for pleasure. While the wit written into this short tale is quite entertaining all on its own - “Bullet in the Brain” does have an actual meaning behind its creation. This man - this Anders - is presented as a grumbling, ill-tempered, querulous person who has worked in such a quantity, and with such quality that the joy he used to receive from doing so is naught but a childhood memory. He can no longer appreciate the one thing in the world he loved more than any other; he can no longer appreciate the power of words, and because he cannot, he cannot be genuinely content with any other aspect of his life. Even on the threshold of death, he is incapable of remembering certain points in his life that one would think to be significant - nothing but the misguided phrase “They is.” “They is” - the simple, mindless, alluring phrase spoken by a bumbling boy on a summer’s day - the unexpected and beautiful incorrectness that Anders could never tire of; the odd bliss he felt in the core of his mind: “They is” is all he could remember, because it was one thing in the world that had the ability to entrance him. He extracts this memory of happiness from some corner of his mind, and then the bullet snatches it from him. Anders’ happiness, the echoing words, leave him in the “comet tail of memory and hope and talent and love” (193). At this point in the time, the reader feels some sort of remorse for this misery of a once man, now corpse. But why? Why does the reader feel anything for this antagonizing man? Anders never lived his life the way Tobias Wolff implies that he should have. And what is Wolff implying? Live life to its fullest, because life sometimes ends abruptly and unexpectedly. Do not get caught up in the solemn seriousness of life, because the not-so-serious experiences in life will be missed, and honestly, what else is there to do in life but live, and let live?

"Look At Me Go! :("

So the craziness that is apparently an innate part of B5 hit like a truck the other day.

I'm not going to go into a lot of it -- but OH MAN. Fucking insane shit, dude.

Let's put it this way... Logan and Kendal had a "talk."

Annnnnnnnnd now he's not really so much allowed to be near the downtown house.

Yep.

I found out yesterday -- duuuuuuurrr. Logan's a close friend of mine, of course I know, right?! hah

Anyway, I'm going to not post my opinions on things (right now?). I honestly don't even know what my opinions are... I just want my friends to be okay. :(

But! I do want to say... to either of you, 'cause y'know, both of ya'll read this here blogger-thingger, if you need to talk... please come find me. Even if I have a mountain of LALS homework (which I probably will ~.~), I will sit and chat with you for as long as you need. It's what friends do! ♥

I love you both. Lots. :]

There's also going to be another post later as to why I was pissed as fuck last night.

Mini-rant, go! Yahoooo!

For the Lawls.

"Hey what's up you silly fuck?!"
"Don't call me a fuck!"
"...but you're my favorite fuck!"

*facepaaaaaalm

♥

I Really Like This...

Ganked from Frankie's Tumblr.

It’s the details that I can’t get enough of. It’s the difference in the sizes of our hands; your fingers and knuckles make mine look like twigs. It’s the way I have to tilt my head back and look up at you to say, “Bitch.” It’s the way you could crush me if you hugged me just a little too hard. It’s just a fetish for that one place I can unabashedly confess, “I’m fragile,” in a world where I have to know, have to believe, and have to yell, “I’m unbreakable.”

Just Amusing.

Mooski #12 Kings and Queens - 30 Seconds to Mars

I like them. It's a good song. :)

There's no actual meaning to this song other than I enjoy the music.

That's a first! Hah

Overview of the Weekend

K so -- things started out with Date Night!

Which went really well. Like really, really well.

Exceeeeeeept for the fact that for some God awful stupid reason I don't like him.

Stupid stupid stupid. ARGH.

Anyway, realization of not liking said person so much killed half a Saturday with bad feelings.

Then people showed up.

And there was booze.

And I was intoxicated quickly.

And bad feelings sort of went away. 

Freshman gave me a lot of candy! And Red Bull! Mmmmmm! :]

Then Michael showed up... some balls were tripped.

I think I spent time in my room then, trying not to freak out, I guess.

I ended up wandering between my room and the living room...

Theeeen I pulled Logan out to talk...

Admitted that I still like him 'n stuff... (!)

Talked about some other things...

annnnnnd sort of cried all over him a little bit...

Oh dear.

After talking with Logan, I went upstairs to talk to Ryan...

Who of course, just made me feel better. Gotta love Ryan!

After that, it was like 11 already and we proceeded to leave Porter and head to Rayne's.

Housewarming party, of course!

Finally got to talk to Michael. Thanks Logan for shoving me out the door!  Everything there is now "fixed."

We were having a blast there (lesbian orgy in the closet! ♥), but her new housemates freaked Rayne out and stuff...

Which, y'know, turned things a little sour. Just a little.

We headed out at like... 2 - 2:30? Dunno. Just went to Kendal's place for a bit. Alec and Logan ended up crashing there... They have a really freaking cute kitty.

Left Kendal's at like 3 AM, got back to Porter, and proceeded to pass the fuck out.

Now it's morning... and I'm just like... holy good fuck, what the hell do I do with my life?

I guess I should take a shower. Go eat at the d-hall. Do normal things.

I did everything I wanted to last night... mission accomplished... but I didn't really think of what might happen this week and today. Kind of worried because some shit did go down last night.

Well. Actually. I don't think anything is going to happen. I'm just gonna go back to being somewhat lonely single me who has hardly any interest in anyone. I feel like I have a switch... and someone turned it off... or that somehow, I've learned to be so emotionally detached to people though the craziness of my life, that it's hard for me to have feelings for anyone outside of my friend group. Geeeeeeeeeeez my brain hurts.

Oh and most of Porter now knows I'm crazy as fuck. I'm not really the most quiet person.

OH WELL. :)

Tonight

Shit Fuck Tits Balls Assholes ARGH Doom Destruction Sleep Sleepy ARGH Damnit.

ARGH THE WORLD

Man, I feel like crap.

Tonight is going to be intense.

All Bad.

I've been on some awesome dates in the past two weeks.

But there's still no emotional attachment for me...

ARGH!

I like this guy 'cause he's cute, nice, tells me I'm pretty and is a damned good kisser... I guess.

Dunno...

Dear problem, fix yourself? Please?

Lots of Links, Lots of Music

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When I Said It Was Nothing...

I lied. :(

Sorry.

Fuck Yeah Ellen.

This is important.

Please watch it.

Long live Ellen!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Br7nbQSIyhg

Mooski #11 Swing Life Away - Rise Against

This song makes me think of someone special... ♥

Intense...

Onion Article: There Was Definitely A Point During That Stoning Where We All Thought, 'Is This Weird?'

http://www.theonion.com/articles/there-was-definitely-a-point-during-that-stoning-w,18165/

College Year Two So Far...

Fucking-fan-tastic!

Honestly, I don't know what could go wrong right now.

Don't have to deal with any shit & roommates are legit!

(See what I did there!)

Well, one's a little creepy drunk, but whatever.

I think I could be considered a little creepy drunk...

Maybe...

Whaaaaaaateveeeer!

Okay so let's talk about THE FIRST DAY.

The first person I saw was none other than my Cameroon, who was wearing just about the coolest purple shirt I've ever seen. And y'know, I've seen a lot of neat purple stuff. I was so excited to see him I was SHAKING. Overreaction, much? Yes. Oh well. I love Cam!
Saw Tanner as I was carrying a bunch of pillows to my new found home (an awesome apartment, in Porter's G-UNIT!) and just basically yelled "TANNER!" and tried to look as happy as possible with uh... like 5 pillows in my arms. I ended up giving him a hug later.

I think I saw Alec next. After I called his little brother Alec. Ooops. That was minorly horrible. Then I started to see people one by one, I think I ran into Logan, and then Dylan and Cory... I dunno. Don't remember now. And for the record, Dylan gave me the best hug by far, but Cory was bringin' the heat. Not like she doesn't naturally, anyway, but yeah. You go girl!

And I've got to mention Logan more because he said he reads my blog and that made me smile!
Er... and by mention I mean I want to write something nice to tell him how much I appreciate him. 'Cause c'mon, everyone can use that right?

K SO! I met Logan in creative writing last year. We became fast friends because we bonded over all the crappy things going on in our lives... and y'know, we enjoyed each other's company as well. (Not to mention Josh and Dana's) Either way, we'd walk back to Porter from 9/10 or sometimes to Fish Rap (he'd go with me, and it made me so happy!) And I remember one night Mark, Cam and I were at Cafe Rev, and all of us ended up playing Pirate Life. Which consisted of awesomenss and ganging up on Mark and Cameron. YEEEESSS! Well anyway, after that fun, we all went back to the B5 lounge where everyone else was completely trashed. People drinking straight vodka out of coffee mugs, etc. We played Apples to Apples until like 4 AM, and after a night of intense fun and games, c'mon, you just gotta be friends for a while! Luckily, that happened. THEN, of course, 'cause I'm crazy as hell and prefer to sabotage my friendships apparently, I developed a crush on him... and he wasn't interested and he handled it very well! I am very appreciative of that, and we're still awesome friends because we both handled it right.

Anyway, that's a quick run-down on Logan. All you need to know essentially though is he's awesome.

So things I'd like to say:

You are seriously a really, really, really wonderful person and I'm so glad I got to meet you! I can't believe that anyone would ever think you to be an asshole. You were the first person at college who I felt like could really understand how it was for me at home... and our timing in meeting was near flawless. I'm so glad I made such a good friend when I was in such need! I was so upset about Mark, and you so... just angry that your people were treating you like crap, and we were each other's vent and it was so good! Because you didn't know anyone! I could bitch and whine and moan and say whatever the hell I pleased because somehow I guess I knew it was okay. I dunno. You were just a really wonderful thing that happened to me last year who helped me get through mindless bullshit, and I just wanted to let you know, since you read this, and you def deserve to be told how awesome you are more often. I have a lot of fun being your friend, because you're one of the most entertaining people I've EVER met, and I hope we have more years of... just plain 'ole happiness to come!

♥ Darlene

I always feel like I seem weird and kind of obsessive when I write on this blog, but honestly, I just care so much for people and I don't see anything wrong in letting them know. Wouldn't the world be a better place if more people did so, anyway?

Erm. Done with huge sidetrack. Aha!

Let's continue with the first day -- and by day I mean night, because the other parts of daylight consisted of me running around far too much for my own personal hygiene and lung capacity.

Anyway, our friends have a house off campus.
With a 7/11 next door.
We had booze.
We had friends.
There was excitement.
& we had fun.

And by FUN I mean Logan did the dishes at like 3-4 AM and cut himself with a cutco knife.

I dunno how that's fun, but we all had a good night!

I dunno what else exactly to say about that night, except for I got in to my apartment at 6:30 AM.

Was kind of proud of myself. Welcome back to college, eh?!

Monday I slept in. A lot. Then decorated my room. It looks rockin'.

Tuesday I spent a good part of the day grocery shopping with the friendlies. Then we went to the bookstore, hung out for a bit, and proceeded to go to the Boardwalk Frolic whiiiccch was lame as shit. I shall never attend it again. Also had to wait an hour for the bus to get to te metro that night. Fuck that shit. In the butt.

Weds was pretty sweet. Woke up early-ish, hung out for a while, went to Casey's, saw her awesome Halloween costume, told her I love her 'cause I do, and played some Shithead. Went back to my place to find Ryan preparing for his jazz audition (which of course, he did well on, duh!) Hung out for a big to find Cam, Tanner, Dylan and Cory at my door telling me it was time to see Scott Pilgrim. I'm so glad I went. That movie was phenomenal. So entertaining.

Which leads to some interesting developments!

After Scott Pilgrim, we went to the D-hall, ate the good noms, and went back to Tanner and Dylan's to watch Glee. I got to watch most of Glee. Most of it. Because Michael Block called me 5 minutes before it ended to tell me he was on campus to visit! EXCITING!

Anyway. Hung out with him until like, midnight. All was well. Really well. I might like him now well. Then it was today and I had to get up at the crack of dawn. Horray. Fuckin' class.
BUUUUUT Michael was back after class and that was exciting! Except he was bored. Because I'm a bad hostess (BUT A GOOD CUPCAKE!!) but that's okay. Then Cam and I had lunch, and I went to my jazz dance class, which was as amazing as I had expected it to be. Hell to the fuck yeah. Coming back from class I ran into Michael again!! And he came over again! ARGH SO EXCITED. But then Ryan came over and Michael seriously may like Ryan more than me. The broffection, it is so intense. He left around 6-ish, I think. I dunno. Nuffin' happened. Tomorrow he's coming around again, and we're going to go see Fight Club at the Del Marr and it's going to be awesome. Hello date night! Yahoo!

Anyway, college so far this year has been freaking amazing. So freaking amazing.

I'll update you more when I can, dear blogger, but I'm gonna have a metric shitton of work to do soon! Oh nooooooooooooess! :(

Mooski #10 Bliss - Muse

HOLY SHIT ON A STICK THERE IS NO MUSE IN MY MOOSKI THINGGER-NESS

Well, there's a reason behind that...

I like to post the actual music videos... but whatever.

This song is so good, it doesn't matter!

One of my favorites from them, which says something... 'cause I love ALL of their stuff ha!



Actual video here. It's pretty neat! (And by neat I mean Bellalicious XD!)

No Way In Hell I'm Actually Sleeping Tonight!

SO MOTHERFUCKIN' FREAKIN' EXCITED TO SEE EVERYONE TOMORROW OMG.

I like reading Kendal's blog. Ehehehehehe. :D

AND I like Kendal.

I can't wait to see her tomorrow! And Mark, and CAMEROON, and Ryan, and Liz, and Julia, and Dylan and Tanner and Asher and Pranov and Casey and Riley and Miguel and Rubnio and Jon and the rest of the Crownies and oh my GOD EVERYBODY and I'm so freaking excited THAT I might even be a little excited to see Alec. And Allyson. I hope we can not be crazy people this year and work things out. Or just like, y'know, pretend the other person doesn't exist if we can't. lol EITHER WAY. HOLY SHIT EXCITED.

I want an amazing hug from Cameron. He's really good at giving them!
I'm going to receive an amazing one from Dylan for sure though, he guaranteed it!

GOD I'M JUST SO EXCITED

AND GOING TO BE SO TIRED

GOTTA GET UP IN LIKE 5 HOURS

CAPS LOCK KEEEEEEEEEY

ONOMNONMNOMNOMNNMNONM.

Saved my last bowl of fruit loops for this morning.
And I've got an apple fritter.
And apple juice.

BREAKFAST OF CHAMPIONS, MOTHAFUCKAAA

o.o

This year is gonna be good.

So good.

I just can't believe it's finally here! I get to go back to SC! SO EXCITING!!

OH AND DEAR BLOGGER, DEAR DEAR BLOGGER,

KATIE BUTLER IS APPLYING TO UCSC.
KATIE BUTLER IS APPLYING TO UCSC.
KATIE BUTLER IS APPLYING TO UCSC.

There's going to be a second person from Rancho, bitches!

And I might possibly grow a backbone because of it.

She is my mentor in bitchy-ness... ahahahahha ♥

Man, I'm so excited. SO EXCITED.

Can't even think of different words.

Brain is too cluttered with OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

/dancedance~

Who WOULDN'T want to see these people again?! Ahahahaha!

Last Day in the 'Cho!

Holy God, it's finally here!

I'll be back in SC tomorrow!!

Saying goodbye to the wonderful people here has been hard, though.

Got a lot closer with a lot of people over the summer, and I'm gonna miss them a whooole lot.
(and the delicious sushi associated with them!)

Cindy, of course, made my summer awesome. So many shopping trips, lots of cheese filled pretzels, Easy A, and camping! Man, we had such a GOOD summer!

I think I've got to give Matt a lot of credit for making my summer as well... whenever I was down/upset/raging he always made me feel better. And he gives awesome hugs!

Chris & Brittainy made me smile quite a bit as well, because everyone started to get along really well and it was wonderful!

Jacob and I had a bunnch of ups and downs. All I've gotta say for us is the summer was epic.
and y'know, meeting Smolich was neat, because, as Matt says, "The dude just leaks awesome."

College Group made my summer significantly better, too. I wish people could understand it's awesomeness. I'm going to miss it a lot! 
I was excited to get to know some people there better! (Dean, Jeph, Bryce, Phil, Aaron, Bree) They're all awesome. And seeing Daniel again was really cool. :) It was so relaxing, so comforting, especially when I had a million things running through my mind... like when grandpa passed... urrrrggg

I dunno what else to say, really. I just had a good summer and I'm really happy I got to spend it with super-cool people! Sort of sad it's over now, but hey, Rancho, we had a good run this year.

WHAT IS THIS GAME?!

The "That's What She Said," it is so intense.

http://www.dorkly.com/video/2956/most-sexual-innuendos-ever?ref=nf

Cats in Ikea!

http://www.tonic.com/article/100-cats-ikea-happiness/

Because I'm Bored

• Why aren't you and the last person you kissed in a relationship?

She's my best friend's girlfriend. Teehee!

• How did you wake up this morning?

This afternoon, I woke up to stay in bed and daydream for a few hours.

• Is there anyone who has impacted your life greatly?

DUHHH

• What were you doing an hour ago?

Showering?

• Who was the last person you talked to last night before bed?

Stephen. lol

• Have you ever stayed up at night waiting for someone to call/text you back?

Nope. I value my sleep far too much.

• Do you secretly like someone?

Maybe? If I do it's kind of a secret to me, too. And who the fuck would admit they secretly liked someone if it was a secret?!

• Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

Um. Cindy & Nicole? Ryan? Rayne?

• Do you have both a loud side and a quiet side?

HOLY CRAP, I DO! I'M SO UNIQUE!

• What are you doing right now?

Obviously being useless. Lounging in my bed...

• Where did you go in a car last?

SUSHI!

• Have you ever felt replaced?

Naw G, naw. Can't replace me.

• Would you ever camp out on a beach, under the stars?

Hell yes!

• What room of your home do you spend most time in?

My room. By a lot.

• How far away is the last person you kissed?

San Jose! So about ~200 miles?

• Is the person you last texted single?

Yes. Very.

• Who all do you have texts from in your phone?

Just friends, really. Mom doesn't text. Dad doesn't exist.

• Last time you smiled because you got a text?

Um... 3 days ago?

• Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to?

Uh. Yes.

• Who was the first person you talked to today?

Stephen?

• What time did you wake up this morning?

1 PM :]

• Are you slowly drifting away from someone right now?

Well of course. haha

• Do you like getting hugs from other people?

YEEEEEEEES. ESPECIALLY DRUNK HUGS!

• Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad?

Yessire!

• Are you a loud person?

Sometimes you can't get me to shut up, other times I'm a mouse.

• Is it okay to kiss people when you're single?

Yes? Since when do you have to be in a relationship with someone to kiss them? ARE WE IN MIDDLE SCHOOL?!

• Are you in a good mood right now?

I'm pretty content. Comfortable. Love chillin' in my robe. Hehe

• Is anyone else in the room with you?

Nope.

• Is there a person in your life that can make you smile?

DUUUUUUUH. Multiple, actually!

• Don't tell me lies, so where's your boyfriend/girlfriend?

In my dreams.

• Do you take compliments well?

I need to learn how to...

• What makes you not be able to sleep?

My entire life? The dark? Random noises? The crazy shit going on in my mind?!

• Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Probably Matt... when we were camping.

• Have you heard a song that reminds you of anyone today?

Not today. Just haven't listened to music yet though.

• Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

Nope. Don't hate anyone, really.

• When's the last time you fell or ran into something?

Yesterday, I think. Stupid bathroom corner.

• What do you hear right now?

A whole lot of nuffin'. The buzzing of laptop's fan, maybe?

• Was last night a good night?

One of the better ones. I had a wonderful conversation with a friend I haven't talked to in a while!

• Are you talking to the person you like right now?

Nope. And not even sure I'm interested in anyone.

• Last person to send you a text that made you smile?

Um. Jon? haha

• Who's the last person to text you?

Stephen.

• Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart?

Yeeeeeeeeeep. I am! ♥

I Don't

think I am classy,
think I am mature,
I just think that I am a person
who posts stuff on a blog.

Ooooooooh!

I have someone to hang out with when I get back to SC!

Y'know, besides B5?

I'm kind of excited. Ehehehehehehe. :]

TWO WEKS and the quarter begins! Man, do I miss you school!

Been talking to anyone and everyone over Facebook. Been so good to hear from people!

Just makes going back to school even more exciting. Good lord. I CAN HARDLY CONTAIN IT!

YAHOOOOOOO!!

Word of the Day: Manversated

1. verb. manversated - when a group of men talk about manly things.

"We climbed a hill, and when we got to the top we smoked some cigars and just manversated."

A friend of mine just seriously used this.

The lols, they are so intense.

Funny Finds on highDEAS

Found this site lookin' through Facebook. Ahhh, Santa Cruz.

http://highdeas.com/

It's basically MLIA for stoners.

But some of this stuff is hellllaa funny!

Here's some highLIGHTS (with some edits for grammar)
lolpuns

• "I woke up, smoked, made a cake, smoked, did some yard work, and then smoked. So I: wake, bake, bake cake, bake, rake, then bake."
• "You know how, if you get a fatal disease, the government allows you to smoke to get through the horrible pain of dying? What if when you were among the biggest losers on the planet? Do you think the government should allow you to toke up to deal with the horrible pain of failure?"
• "Count Chocula - he makes a dank-ass chocolate milk at the end of the bowl."
• "Anyone else make music in their heads sometimes? Like your own little mind band? When we can turn our head music into actual music there is going to be some fucking cool music."
• "Tonight at rugby practice, I broke my nose and it's already outrageously swollen. Unfortunately for me, I just used all my ice for my bong. I still made the right decision."
• "Drunk people blow through stop signs. High people wait for them to turn green."
• "If Johnny Bravo were still around he would totally be on Jersey Shore hittin' up Snookie."
• "If you have a lot of weed and smoke someone out, and they buy you a lot of food, did they just eat you out?"

Oh This is HELLA GOOD.

lol Starcraft.

http://www.dorkly.com/article/2634/conversations-in-the-terran-locker-room

Aggrivation, Yes Baby!

Hrmm. Kinda tempted to rant...

and seeing as I've already started a post:

Let the blood bath begin!

This one is for a friend (?) who has had his own posts before~

I know you know who you are. What I don't know is if you give a flying fuck enough anymore to even remember my blog exists.

See, now, I'm really happy that you've met someone. Honestly. It was all I was hoping for this summer. I wanted you to be happy, and now you are. Though I do find the fact that she's 16 (and just turned 16, too) pretty creepy. Not because she's immature, or anything, and I do like her, just there's a huge age difference. It's... concerning.

Why am I mad, then?

You used to always have the feeling that I was just using you until I went back to Santa Cruz, and I told you that we were actually friends. I felt so bad for so long and tried so hard to prove otherwise.

And now~

Funny how things work, right? Being used and all?

The moment you found someone new, I was out like garbage - not that I mind all that much, because you were taking one hell of a toll on my mental state, but whatever. It's just annoying, and I guess I'd say rude? I guess I might even deserve it, but yeah... thought you were working on your friendships, and your ability to maintain them? Hm.

Oh well, way to be an ass. It is indeed, the reason why I never gave you a chance. Funny that that was the exact reason you gave to Chelsea and Kayla when they asked why we weren't together.

And for your benefit, I'll explain why I was so pissed that you went crazy when Tony was here:

1. You met him. You hung out with him. You knew I was perfectly fine with him, and yet you still blew up not only my, but his phone.
2. Your reaction tells me that you believe that I can't handle myself around guys.
3. I was well aware that he liked me. You should have been aware that I can make whatever decision I want when it comes to my relationships. Also: tidbit of info here: I wasn't interested romantically.
4. You did the same thing a month before. I showed interest in a human being, you went crazy. I stopped talking to you for like a week, thought you learned your lesson. Guess not.

I've said before that I see you as a brother-type figure. Which would be fine and dandy if you weren't the overprotective type.

I Very Much Agree!

Stolen from Kim's tumblr 'cause it's awesome!

Blogger Stats

So I couldn't figure out why my blog's stats were nonexistent before July 2010.

That's because blogger didn't start counting stats before then. Derp.

Anyway, I'm kind of proud to say that my blog gets about ~650 views a month.

That's pretty cool.

I bet Mark is more internet famous than me, though!

My Horoscope from the Onion

Capricorn -
Stop worrying about what people think of you, especially since it's so complicated you probably wouldn't be able to understand it.

THANKS ONION. lol

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATTY!

You're such a good friend and deserve all the wonderful things happening to/around you! I hope you enjoyed your 21st! CSUS was HELLAAAA BOMMMB.

Love always,
Darlene!

Mooski #9 Hi Friend! - Deadmau5

Roccccccckin'!

Emmys Goodness:

Just a pic of David Tennant. I liked it. Didn't know he'd be at the Emmys, but who I am kidding? He was DOCTOR WHO! Yeaaah!


I think it'd be harder to find a picture of him I didn't like, but whatever.

Random Bored-ness

lead to this!

According to this... writing analyzer thing,

http://iwl.me/

I write like:

Name of "Work" ~ Author
The "Real" McCoy ~ Cory Doctrow
Persepolis ~ EDGAR ALLEN POE
JCO Paper ~ Margaret Atwood
Halving the Bones Paper ~ H. P. Lovecraft
Angels in America ~ KURT VONNEGUT
ID Paper ~ STEPHEN KING
Oh, Irony Paper (New Yorker) ~ H. P. Lovecraft
Mary Jane Paper I Never Turned In Because It's Lame ~  Cory Doctrow
Animal Rights ~ George Orwell
College App Essay ~ Vladimir Nabokov
Stampede ~ Isaac Asimov
Beginning of That Fiction Thing ~ Gertrude Stein
What the Fuck is Up with Virgins ~ David Foster Wallace
Blog Post: "So Much Angst" ~ J. D. Salinger
Blog Post: "I'M BAACK" ~ Cory Doctorow
Blog Post: "Darlene is Fucking Pissed" ~ J. D. Salinger

I looked up who Cory Doctorow is. Thinking about reading one of his books now. Little Brother looks really good. He's a science-fiction novelist. Figures. I also find it HELLA funny that my most insane rants got J.D. Salinger. WHAT'S UP HOLDEN?! AM I PHONY?! The fact that I got Poe and Vonnegut just made my night though. They're two of my favorite authors, and those two papers are some of my best work. Funny that I got George Orwell for the paper on animal rights. Animal Farm, anyone? Amusssssing. I'd also like to know what David Foster Wallace writes about, because that article was insane and very, very strange. This also tells me that I haven't developed a set style yet. (Or that this thing is full of shit! XD) Ah well, that was an efficient waste of time. Coolio. I'll look up the rest of these people later. Might find some interesting things to read! Yahoo!

Edit: I just put in some stuff from JCO (excerpt from "Zombie" in my paper) - and it came up Cory Doctorow. Put in ID by JCO, got Stephen King. Spider Boy got me Vonnegut. Landfill got Mario Puzo. So I've determined one thing for sure!: Joyce Carol Oates doesn't exist on the site, therefore it can't be real, 'cause SHE'S A HELLA FAMOUS AND HELLA GOOD AUTHOR.

haha. Yep.

Oh Cracked, The Sense You Make Is Legendary~

The 10 Most Important Things They Didn't Teach You In School - via Cracked

#1 is def my favorite. 

Random .gifs

My Desktop

is cuter than yours.












...that is all.

Mooski #8 - I Like You So Much Better When You`re Naked - Ida Maria

So much win involved in this. Seriously.

"I Like You So Much Better When You're Naked."
"That's interesting, but what's the song called?"

:] goodtimes.

Hey, You're a Douchebag!

Yes, you!

YOU DELETED ME ON FACEBOOK, OH NOOOOOES.

It's okay, you're way too good for me anyway.

The luls, they are so intense.

Now, for an actual legit reason to make this post:

This is post:

*drumroll*

500!!

Man, that's a lot of ranting, geeking out, and beautiful men. What the hell else do I talk about?

OH RIGHT, HELLA STUPID DRAMA. looooooooooooool. *facepalm*

My life is hilarious... at least I think so. Herp-aderp-aderp.

It's also the first post of September! September!

19 MORE DAYS UNTIL MOVE-IN. HELLLL YEEEEEESS!

I was also going on the most amazing adventure of my life, one year ago.

Man... crazy how much one year changed my life.

Intense shit, fo'sho.

I still really miss those times... but now that the insanity that this summer brought is over... I've got a few more weeks to actually relax and not give a FUCK!

There will be booze involved. FUCK YEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAH!

Ahahahahahha Highway 17!

http://www.craigslist.org/about/best/sfo/1590948273.html

Greetings from your friendly HWY 17 bus driver

---

Date: 2010-02-07, 10:57PM PST

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First of all, I'd like to compliment you all on the quality and quantity of your middle fingers.

I realize I am widely despised and considered by many of you to be a selfish, clueless, dangerous bastard of a road hazard. I understand where you are coming from. Even if you are a greedy, spoiled, impatient piece of shit. I understand.

Let me address a couple of specific issues.

1. The fast lane, or as it is known in "the business," the Number One Lane.
Why in bloody hell, some of you wonder, would a goddamn bus be using the fast lane southbound between 280 and Los Gatos, when it can't travel much over 70 mph (MAX) on a downhill grade, and moves like a snail on the uphill? Well, it's like this: I am trying to avoid the clusterfuck merges that occur throughout that stretch. The road is full of really bad drivers, as you know... and while a passenger car might stand a chance of swerving or accelerating or braking out of trouble, not me. I need to stay out of the way of that shit. If a merging idiot cuts me off and I have to decelerate on an even a slight uphill grade, there will be peace in the Middle East before I can get back up to the speed limit. I know you are pissed off that I am keeping you from speeding your ass off for a few minutes, but if I get stuck in the Idiot Merge and have to slow down, then you will see some really serious traffic blockage while I hold the throttle pedal to the floor and wait for the bus to resume any forward motion. I know you don't give a shit about that because you can drive better than James Bond and would easily bust through the jam with amazing technique, but next time you might be a minute or two behind me... then you will taste some serious inconvenience and delay because some asshole such as yourself didn't let me just keep up enough momentum to get out of the way as soon as possible.

2. Speaking of merging:
Look here, the bus has basically two modes; floored and stopped. When floored, the actual speed depends entirely on grade and momentum. When I am coming down a ramp to merge onto the highway, I am FUCKING FLOORING IT, ok? I am trying to get as close to the flow of traffic as possible. Maybe you are in the right land and see me up ahead, preparing to merge and signaling left. You could do a couple of things. You could slow down and let me in, which I would appreciate but certainly not expect of you. Or, probably even better, you could put your fucking foot in it and blast cleanly around me and make good your escape. But either way, you gotta shit or get off the pot. Please do not hover back there in my blind spot, spitting and cussing and wondering when I'm going to make my move. Guess what? You are already seeing my move. I am signaling left and standing on the throttle with my full weight. You're the one in the vehicle that actually has a choice to go faster. I realize that sometimes I am getting in your way. Really, I'm sorry about that, but if you make me slow down because I can't tell where you are ... well, then we're going to see how badly I can make traffic back up. The rule of thumb is this: Do what traffic expects you to do. That means do not come to a screeching halt on the freeway because you think I'll cut in front of you, or because you are such a sweetheart that you are willing to fuck 5 miles of commuters behind you so that I can creep into traffic. Just drive. Do what traffic expects. If you can just carry on at your same speed and zip right past me than please do so. On the the other hand, if you see me a half mile up ahead, signaling left and waiting waiting waiting to get over, and no one will budge, and I am getting dangerously close to the point of no return... please do not floor it when I finally get a little gap and you are several hundred yards back. We want the same thing, you and me. You want to get the fuck away from me and I also want you to do that.

Oh, and northbound, after the curvy part of 17, just after the Cats restaurant, where the first Los Gatos onramp comes in... I always grab the left lane anywhere I can get it after Lexington Reservoir and the Cats. The traffic merging onto the freeway at Los Gatos is deadly. Deadly and slow. Plus, there is another merge nightmare shortly thereafter as people try and remember whether they want 85 or not... or start reading their map to see what 85 even is. I don't want 85. I want to stay away from everyone who is wrapped up in the spiritual dilemma over whether to take it or not. That means one thing and one thing only: Left Lane. Please keep in mind... I am not trying to block your way. I just need to maintain my speed long enough to get around all that shit. As usual, if I get caught in it, I'll become a much bigger pain in the ass while I try and get back up to speed over the next 20 minutes.

3. Lane changes/passing other vehicles
Same deal. Believe it or not, there are vehicles on the road even slower than the Hwy17 bus. Usually they are big rigs, construction trailers, out-of-town first-times (on this road) doing the White Knuckler... and sometimes they are just terrified little idiots who refuse to believe that the posted speed limit is to be trusted. If I get caught behind this stuff on the uphill... forget it. I'll be slowing up the traffic for a long time If you see me on the downhill, signaling left, please let me get around them. I can do it going downhill, and I PROMISE to get the fuck back in the slow lane immediately.

I hope this clears up some confusion. It is a treacherous road, and can be unbearably frustrating when you are in a hurry. Please keep in mind that my bus is not the only thing out there jamming up traffic. In fact, I'll jam it up less if given just a little room. At least I am aware of the situation and aware of the need to try and stay out of the way when I can't go fast, and to keep things flowing when I can.

Oh, and to the woman in the dirty Subaru Outback with the Montessori bumper sticker... you really need to quit biting your nail on that middle finger. Your Bird-Flippng technique is flawless, but that fingernail is disgusting. Next time I see it (probably tomorrow) I want to see it neatly trimmed.

This is Awesome.

http://www.geekalerts.com/flying-helicopter-alarm-clock/

Read that URL.

Awesome = yes.

This is Also Interesting

Kind of a neat way to think about life. Eh.

http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=18768430

Six-Word Memoirs: Life Stories Distilled

Some examples:

After Harvard, had baby with crackhead.
- Robin Templeton

70 years, few tears, hairy ears.
- Bill Querengesser

Watching quietly from every door frame.
- Nicole Resseguie

Catholic school backfired. Sin is in!
- Nikki Beland

Savior complex makes for many disappointments.
- Alanna Schubach

Nobody cared, then they did. Why?
- Chuck Klosterman

Some cross-eyed kid, forgotten then found.
- Diana Welch

She said she was negative. Damn.
- Ryan McRae

Born in the desert, still thirsty.
- Georgene Nunn

A sake mom, not soccer mom.
- Shawna Hausman

I asked. They answered. I wrote.
- Sebastian Junger

No future, no past. Not lost.
- Matt Brensilver

Extremely responsible, secretly longed for spontaneity.
- Sabra Jennings

Joined Army. Came out. Got booted.
- Johan Baumeister

Almost a victim of my family
- Chuck Sangster

The psychic said I'd be richer.
- Elizabeth Bernstein

Grumpy old soundman needs love, too.
- Lennie Rosengard

Mom died, Dad screwed us over.
- Lesley Kysely

Painful nerd kid, happy nerd adult.
- Linda Williamson

Write about sex, learn about love.
- Martha Garvey

The New Classics: Books

Meh. Haven't read a lot of 'em but I see some good titles on there. Guessin' it might be a pretty legit list. Dunno if Harry Potter is on there because a million people have read it, though.

http://www.ew.com/ew/article/0,,20207076_20207387_20207349,00.html

/shrug

EMMYS 2010!

So it seems that only Ryan Murphy and Jane Lynch won their Emmys.

Depressing, but Glee won my heart fifteen times over this season, so irrelevant!

Who's hot for Mr. Schuester?!

THIS BITCH //

Lea Michelle won BEST DRESSED FEMALE. AWESOME.

...and the rest of the Glee ladies looked fabulous. Not one was laughed at by crazy ass Joan Rivers.

& Chris Colfer stole my heart, again.
He always does. Ahhhh. ♥

I Miss Doctor Who :(

(Woo, Doctor!)

Can't believe I've got to wait until, like, DECEMBER to watch more quirky goodness. I really like Matt Smith, and Amy Pond is a wonderful companion. She's been fun to watch! Hrm. Yeah. I feel like this post was made so I could put a picture of Matt Smith on my blog. Whatever. XD

There Will Be...

more additions to the beautiful man wall soon.

The Glee cast has some beautiful men. (Matthew Mmmmmmmmmmorrison! XD)

So, um, yeah.

Too lazy to do it now though. Hah :D

My Dreams

...are hella weird.

But I usually forget them too quickly to type 'em out.

Last night I dreamed that myself, Cindy, Katie Butler, and Ruby were on a weird form of Big Brother, and that the world was more than likely in the midst of a nuclear war.

I remember sitting down in this, like, old abandoned bus station type thing, trying to plan out an alliance between us four because we all knew each other but nobody else knew!

WTF?

'Cause She's Cute!

Most little girls my age loved Sailor Moon. I know I sure as hell did. Venus was my favorite. Woohoo!



LOOK HOW CUTE SHE IS! ♥

RIP Grandpa

:(

I'll post more on this later, but today has been a rough day.

Funerals are weird.

VICTORY!

New header is hella cute. Like the new blog name too. I've always liked the silly things my brother calls me, and the "creature" part comes from Cooper. He always said that I was fairly different, so different in fact, that I am a creature. I googled that one day and found the adorable little thing in my header.

This has been a good blog layout update thing.

Success! ♥

...and the URL ACTUALLY MAKES SENSE NOW!! YAAAAAY!!

Changed the Blog's Name Again

...cause I don't write about love. lol

Nor do I ADD much of it.

Hrm. Whatever. Might go back.

I dunno.

lolFinn

He's so dopey. I love him.



:] I GRAFFITI'D YO' FACE, FINN!

They had a Sim of him and Rachel on Mod the Sims. Rachel looked good, but Finn's face wasn't dopey enough, and that's quite possibly my favorite thing about him... so no download. I'm sure there's more to come though! I need a Sue Sylvester Sim. I feel like my life would be very close to complete. Oh yeah, this post is the first to create the "Glee" label! Yahoo!

Beautiful People on the Bachelorette

So this season of the Bachelorette was one to remember. (Which coming from me, is saying a lot.) There were some fantastic people on it! I don't normally watch this show, or the Bachelor, because I find the Bachelor/Bachelorette to be boring, the show hella corny, and so on so forth. And I like bad television.

This is Ms. Bachelorette: Ali Fedotowsky - she ended up with a smokin' hot man.


First of all: she's hella cute! But also, she was fun to watch, had a pretty fantabulous personality (she handled her "situations" well) and I actually felt like she was a person. Good Bachelorette makes for good show. It only makes sense.

There were some of her guys:
(I like American boys, too!)

#1 - Jonathan Novack ~ "Weatherman"


LOOK AT THIS MAN. LOOK AT HIM. ISN'T HE THE MOST ADORABLE THING EVER?! I'm using the cast pictures from the show to make the blog look pretty and polished, so here's another look: Click HERE for hella cute weatherman. Just gonna say this again: LOOK AT THAT FACE!! LOOK AT THAT FACE!! SOADORABLE. Anyway, in the Bachelorette, he got picked on by this next guy I'm going to showcase, and lord, I didn't know male drama could rival that of its counterpart. It was beautiful. He was on Bachelor Pad for a few episodes, but them crazy evil ladies on that show SENT HIM HOME. EVEN AFTER HE SANG THEM HILARIOUS SONGS. I was actually upset. Actually upset that he got voted off. Stupid ABC. They need to take lessons from VH1 in the sense that THEY NEED TO APPEASE THEIR VIEWERS!! GAH! Erm. Yeah. Anyway. I love the Weatherman. I want to write to him!



#2 - Craig McKinnon


THIS GUY. THIS GUY RIGHT HERE. THIS GUY HAS AWESOME HAIR. ALL CAPS. FOR REAL. I have a hard time deciding who I like more - this guy or the Weatherman. On the Bachelorette he pretty much bullied the Weatherman - and the Weatherman kind of sort of proceeded to act like a little girl. I love him, but he was pretty lame on the Bacheorette. Anyway, Craig dressed up in some of the Weatherman's stuff and paraded around, making corny weather jokes. It was brilliant. The Weatherman, in return, went and told Ali that he was "dangerous." AND in the promotion/preview commercials for Bachelor Pad, Craig won my heart. He did. He said to the camera, "You know what they say about me. *pause* *hair flip* I'm dangerous." SO GOOD. SO FUNNY. This is a pretty good video, sums him up pretty well. He's an asshole. And I love him for it.



#3 - Frank Neuschaefer


This guy is just "smokin' hot," to quote Brett Michaels (lol). I was rooting for him hardcore throughout the entire season. Too bad. If you've been living in a hole, or just hate reality television (both 100% acceptable!) he made it to the final three to decide that he was still in love with his ex-girlfriend, and flew back out to Tahiti to meet Ali and tell her what happened. The drama, it was so intense. Man. Glasses on hunks are hot. Teehee! This is a video of the break up. Hella intense television. The music is so corny though. It makes me angry. (Remember to look at how cute he is!)



...and yeah well that's it for this post. I want to play more Sims.
Actually, I lied. Gonna go watch Big Brother in five minutes. Sims can wait 'til later.

Re: I'M BAACK

annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd so is my music!

Man oh man, I missed you laptop.

Just added... a lot of stuff. Should keep me content through the year! :]

Still need suggestions though... I wouldn't mind finding a hella cool band or two.

And my Muse collection is now complete. Ehehehehehe :D

HEY YOU LOOK FUCKING STUPID

MORE RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGE



(I am def PMSing. XDD)

People on Facebook are hellamotherfucking lucky that I didn't put a pic of them on here. I was tempted. Instead, because I felt mercy was due (for some stupid reason) I googled "hipster glasses" and got that pic up there. ↑ Girl isn't even ugly. Just LOOKS STUPID IN THOSE DAMNED GLASSES. I hate everything they embody. ~.~

I'M SO ANGRY AT THE WORLD THIS EVENING

AAAAAAAAAAARRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH

~.~

I'M BAACK

SO, after a loooooooooooong time spent laptop-less, I have returned.

And oh, dear blogger, I missed you a ton. No venting room is torture.

There's been quite a bit to vent about, as well...

BUT! I started writing this post specifically for a certain little reason.

Me... I don't trust myself anymore. But I know I'm a good person. A cool person. A person people like to be around. I'm not as shy as I make myself out to be. I don't want to be so damned shy anymore. The only reason I ever was in the first place was the fact that I was so damned scared of what everyone would think...

For example: during camping trips with the Specerts (and Matty! :]) I am bat-shit crazy. Borderline insane, and I am so happy. So joyous. And my happiness, and almost retardation keeps me, me. I really needed that camping trip to make me feel comfortable in my own skin again. I mean, after last year, I thought I was not only ugly, which for me, is sadly a thought I think of myself far too often, but too loose, as in I thought that I was borderline skank. I didn't do anything. Nope. I don't believe that shit, but I feel like I pretty much convinced myself that I was a terrible person. I'm not. I know I'm not. I am aware of who I am... I just have to remember this year that if people don't like me as the ditzy, loud, blonde girl who's happiness rivals that of another's depression, well, fuck 'em. I never really had this problem in high school. Never had to deal with the dire need to make friends. When I got to UCSC, I know that I was somewhat in a state of panic. And then I broke my hand. Found people. Some good, some bad. Still pains me to say that some are bad... but that'll be okay eventually when we both grow up a little more.

Okay... so! I want to discuss my super self consciousness about being skanky, loose, or minorly whorish, because I remember hearing last year that the girls thought I was a little loose. All I've got to say is wow, you either A) Lied to please the crazy B) Actually think so... SO I'm going to make clear that: Any action I took last year regarding men was not slutty. It's OK to like men or women, or whoever, just to clarify so I'm not seen as being discriminatory, and want to be in a relationship. I'm going to list some "boy" instances for me this year, and explain what I think about them, then say a piece on my ideas about dating, and stuff like that.

1) First crushes - People in Santa Cruz were new, attractive, and interesting. I basically had a crush on everyone and was a little bit of a creeper. I'll admit that. But I didn't do anything with anyone nor develop any actual feelings for any of those people. A crush is a crush. It's a silly infatuation.
2) Marc - I thought he liked me, I liked him. I feel like that's self explanatory.
3) Drunk Darlene - This is something I really want to address. Once Mark stopped talking to me last year I had nobody to feel totally comfortable around when I was drunk. I remember being asked once, "Why do you want to be with Ryan so bad?" Why? Because I trust him. I more than likely even liked Ryan more, and wanted to be with him because he was my friend. The hanging-off-ness comes with the Drunk Darlene package, I'm afraid -- but if that were ever to become an actual issue that needed to be worried about, y'know, I would've, but it didn't because Ryan and I are both mature enough to be around a member of the opposite sex and just be friends, (not to mention he has a wonderful girlfriend) doesn't mean I need to be attacked for wanting to be around him more than another group. After a while I started to branch out to more people, the people I really liked and trusted (Cam, Logan, British Jon). I did it with the girls too (Kendal, Julia, Liz), but that was never really noticed, and hey, personally, I'd prefer to hang off of a guy than a girl. I'm into them. IT'S OKAY TO BE A LITTLE FLIRTATIOUS. IT'S FUN. Just as long as you don't make bad decisions (AKA having drunk sex), I see nothing wrong with it. I mean God, I'm a whore? I'm just exploring my options. I'm only going to be in college once and I am going to live it up, explore, and hopefully find someone that will be my other half. I don't KNOW if it's going to happen in college, but it might, and why waste time not finding out? Er. Yeah. Rant. I just mostly wanted to say cuddling while drunk isn't slutty, it's pretty much perfectly normal.
4) Cameroon - I love Cam to death. We kind of both had a thing for each other, but decided it'd be best for us to just stay friends. I'm happy with it. :]
5) Creepy Kyle - So I was asked once, "Darlene, did you have sex with Creepy Kyle?" and I responded, "No." That's what happened. We hung out a bit, and I remember following him around one night, but nothing serious ever happened.
6) (cue dun dun dunnn) TANNER - DURRRRRRRRRRR this is the one that aggravates me the MOST! I feel like waiting a month, month and a half, maybe even two (I don't remember when they broke up) after a 1-2 month relationship is ample amount of time for someone to become interested in another person. AKA Tanner isn't a terrible person for liking me after some time, and nor am I a terrible person for giving him a chance. I had always liked Tanner as a person and I thought it might work out. Too bad it was the contrary, but whatever, he's still a very cherished friend, and c'mon, if we don't work, what more can I ask for? :D Either way, sure, I prolly messed up not asking Allyson if it was okay. I get that I crossed the line a little bit there, but then again, I sort of think that that was a silly place for the line. I had a best friend start dating a guy, who I had dated for 6-7 months, and had only been broken up with for a month. She's still my best friend. For me, men aren't worth friendships and some friends are not worth men, and the sooner more girls figure that out, the sooner I will have more female friends. I think with my brain and my heart, because anyone I am even minorly interested in dating is my friend. I honestly didn't think that it would become the biggest drama infestation I've ever had to deal with in my entire life. I didn't have to deal with petty bullshit of that level in high school. Just thinking about all of the idiotic pain and suffering I went through last year makes me want to throw up more. And I was already sick earlier today driving home from Fort Bragg. XD Oh, and, yeah. I had sex with Tanner. HE TOOK MY V-CARD, OH NO. Are you people crazy? Do you think Prince Charming is the only person you're ever going to have sex with? ARE YOU INSANE?! I'm glad Tanner was my first time. He's a good person and I trust him and I feel like he'll be a part of my life for a while - if not - oh well, life goes on.

I don't really know what else to say on that subject.

I feel a little better now, though. And my Mom's in my room talking to me so I guess I should prolly pay attention to her. Derp. ~.~

I Can't BELIEVE I Haven't Already Posted This:

Fucking love Vry. He's the best. XD ♥
For anyone that doesn't get it: I'm Kilye. I wear skirts, make pizza, and get stalked. The song parodied is "Hey There Delilah."

...I was looking around on Magitek forums.

Hey lil' Kilye
Do you like Rancho Cordova
I'm a million yalms away but tonight your skirt's so pretty
Oh yes it's true
My belly's fuller knowing you
I swear its true

Hey lil' Kilye
Don't you worry about eventing
I'm right here if you get MPKd so baby try to listen
Close your eyes.
Don't listen to all of Mashu's lies
I'm on your side.


Oh its what you bake for me
Ohhhh its what you bake for me
Oh its what you bake for me
Ohhhh its what you bake for me
Oh its what you bake for me
What you bake for me

Hey lil Kilye
I know that getting gil is hard hard,
Believe me now my darling
The Marinara Pizza wont go hard
So feed me good
I'll buy the life you knew I would
Your pizzas good

Hey Kilye darlin'
I've got so much left to say
If every little word I wrote to you
I could deliver in a day
I'd stalk ya down
Someday you'd find me in your town
I'd stalk ya down

Oh its what you bake for me
Ohhhh its what you bake for me
Oh its what you bake for me
Ohhhh its what you bake for me
Oh its what you bake for me
What you bake for me

A continent seems pretty far
But google maps seems good so far
I'd email you for pizza every day
The linkshell they make fun of us
And we just laugh and cry because we know
that that none of them get pizza at thir price.
Kilye I can promise you
That by the time your pizzas thruogh
Metsu Stroke will never be the saaaaaame
And you're to blame

Okay now Kilye you be good
and quickly clear your cache and history
Two more minutes until Calvin's there
and you want your online life to stay a mystery
Yeah you do.
You know you're blond but we ♥ you
We could stalk anyone we wanted to
But Kilye darling we chose you.
We're stalking you.

Oh its what you bake for me
Ohhhh its what you bake for me
Oh its what you bake for me
Ohhhh its what you bake for me
Oh its what you bake for me
What you bake for me

Fuck Yeah California!

FUCK YOU PROP 8!!

YAAAAAAAAY :] :] :]

I cannot understand why people would ever discriminate against other people for being in love!

EQUALITY = WIN

If you live in a state that is not CA, let me explain:

'Bout two years ago, Prop 8 was on our ballot.

It was basically: If Prop 8 passes, gay marrigae will not be valid in CA.

Prop 8 passed. Not by a lot, but yeah, whatever. Fucking nasty bullshit.

TODAY!

A judge ruled that Prop 8 was unconstitutional.

Fuck yes. Fuck yes. Fuck yes!!

Thank you world! ♥

Stuff to Read...

Some of it looks good... happy August!

http://www.slate.com/id/2262070/pagenum/all/#p2

Because It's Awesome.

So I recently saw the SanFran Symphony perform Distant Worlds.

AKA FUCK YEAAAH AWESOME FINAL FANTASY MUSSSIC!

It was a beyond amazing time. I was hella days out of my mind and it was fantastic!

Yahoo! Marina!

I AM CEREBUS ALPHAAAAAAAA...?

Derp. Yeah, whatever.

Either way, they played the chocobo theme... well one of them...

Swing de Chocobo. Fuck yes.

There was a cute explosion. I WAS SO EXCITED!! Aiyeeee~

Hrm. Yeah. So. /shurg

I present to you!

Hella cute bird singing the chocobo theme:

Redemption!

Shit. I miss spellcheck. I'm going to go through all my recent posts when I get my laptop back and FIX EVERYTHING. ~.~

ANYWAY, I feel a whole lot nicer this week.

And by that, I mean I feel a whole lot less angry.

(Hi Jacob, I can possibly send you more than one blunt text message a day!)

Speaking of blunts, they have a weed booth at the State Fair this year. LOL

Erm. Yeah.

I didn't get to go to sushi today. Kinda sucks. Was really looking forward to doing something... haven't gone out in a while... ah well, didn't really have a choice in the matter so I'll get over it. Yep!

In other news:
MY UNCLE PAUL SMELLS SO BAD OMG
OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG.
I don't think he's showered in ten days.

TEN DAYS. UGH. SMELLS LIKE HOMELESS MAN.
SMELLS LIKE INSANE HOMELESS MAN.

T.T

He's been here that amount of time: ten days. Ten days of stupid questions smell and me avoiding the front room. Urg. Of all times for me to be angry/grouchy/not feeling well why did it have to be when Uncle Paul was over?

I've been reading Lord of the Rings a lot lately. God I love Tolkien. He's so amazing. So awesome. Makes me sit down and read things. That's intense.

I read really slowly though. Only through about 200 pages. I just... don't like the physical act of reading. I can never be comfortable, because I have to have the book super close to my face so I can read it, because reading with my glasses on hurts my eyes... retarded. Wish I'd read more. There's so many good things to read, and I'd feel a lot better about myself if I did... I'd feel more... like... I'm not wasting my life away as I do with my usual forms of entertainment.

Blah blah blah, blah blah blah.

I really just want to talk about nothing. Nobody and nothing. I just want to type. I enjoy typing. Maybe it's because I'm actually not half bad at typing. I think. Maybe. Ah well, whatever.

That was quite possibly the most useless thing I've ever written. Bravo me!

Oh yeah um...

DISTANT WORLDS IS THIS WEEK OMG YAY EXCITEEEEEEEEEEDDDD :]]

Amazing, amazing, beautiful music will be MINE!

And hopefully, there will be a stuffed chocobo I can buy.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO BUY ONE. XD

I will display it on my bed next year proudly, for I am a geek, and I am a proud geek, and if you don't like chocobos, you've got some serious issues. They're about the cutest things ever. Especially baby chocobos. OMG. OMG. OMG. hellocutegasm

My friend, Chris, and his band are playing tomorrow at the State Fair. I bought a season pass but need to print it. Hopefully, I can get that sorted out somehow. I kind of feel like I should have just spend the like, extra $6 (if I decide to go 3 times, as I presume I will) to make less of a hassle. Well... I bought the stuff now so whatever but yeah... kinda freaking out about it because I don't want my mother to go through the roof for whatever retarded reason she finds...

Didn't go to College Group on Sunday. Should've, but didn't. Was kind of cold as well. Yuck! No movie, no normal Sunday night relaxation... sad.

Didn't go to Rory's yesterday (Monday Night Pong) but... that was for reasons of: "OHMYGODMYUTERUSISFALLINGOUTOW." I always love Mondays, but yeah, can't do some things so well sick. Had almost thrown up earlier that day, so I figured alcohol wouldn't be good...

Man, whatever. I'm just hella bored. I was intending on posting something meaningful, but I guess I just wanted to say I'm a whole lot less angry. It's good.

Maybe boredom cures rage. Hrm. Maybe.

I can't wait to go to the fair tomorrow. It's going to be fun. Love the fair, even though it gets hella hot. Just gotta get this season pass thing figured out and all will be well! Yahoo! :]

Thursday Distant Worlds. OMG. OMG. OMG. XD
Friday Distant Worlds.

Saturday... weekend already?! WTF?!

Possibility of Ryan and Brytnny.

Excitement.

Shit, this week may just turn out to be awesome!

BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHRAMBLERAMBLEBOREDBORED

I'm hungry. Food. Food. Food. Yum! Yay!

Mooski #7 For Your Entertainment - Adam Lambert

I've already featured this man on my Wall of Beautiful Men (see the Beautiful Men label) and I just love this song.

Sure, it doesn't show off his pipes (as much as a song could) but with pipes like his, damn!

Either way... I like this song... a lot... and to quote Mr. Ventura: "This song is sex."

I agree. I SO AGREE. :]

So I'm Hella Weird

and move/talk/whatever in my sleep.

This morning, I woke up without my PE shorts on. (I normally sleep in them, of course!)

I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW THAT HAPPENED. lol

I'm just going to guess that I'm talented. Aha :]

Just thought the world should know.

Also hella bored. Fuck my laptop screen being... dead.

But Distant Worlds is on.. Weds... I think... Weds right??

Sure, still pretty pissed at Jacob, but y'know, whatever.

Full. Live. Orchestra.

OhmyGodyes.

Yahooooo~!

To pass the time, I've been watching a lot of Harry Potter.

and I've started reading the Lord of the Rings again.

Maybe I'll read enough to finish all 3 and then muster the courage to plow through the Simarllion!

Hella butchered that. Oh well.

Don't think I'm going to Rory's tomorrow. I more than likely will feel like not. Eh heh.

Blahblahblah, blah blah, blah blah. British guy wanted to talk to me today. Made me smile.

Damn, I ALWAYS FEEL CREEPY. WHY AM I SO CREEPY?

Y'know, I don't actually think I'm that creepy. I know creepy.

Derp. Wonder how many people read this blog, anyway.

I suspect more Santa Cruz might've jumped on the bangwagon after that crazy rant post, but, I've posted nothing substantial (pertaining to them, anyway) in a while...

Man, I can't wait to see them. They are wonderful people, they really are. And I miss them.

Only like... two more months and a week. Like... roughly 70 days? Urgg...

BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHTUMMYHURTSOWBLAHBLAHBLAHURG

SO

My laptop's screen is broken.

FML. :(

Sad Panda, Encore

I don't want to be mad...

I don't want to be here...

I don't want to be alone...

I don't know what to do...

FUCK YEAH I FOUND IT!

I saw this video a hella long time ago...

and I wanted to show it to someone... can't remember who...

'cause

y'know...

DANCING GALKA LOL

Derp. <.<



There's an ToAU version, and a taru version, and all kinds of silly shit. XD

SOOOOOOO AMUSING! ♥

Darlene is Fucking Pissed.

Well shit, I sure know myself well.

I told you I'd more than likely be angry in the morning, right?

I sure wasn't kidding!

K now: Hello rant! Commence! Begin! Let the mother fucking river flow.

I am incredibly angry.

Do you realize what you did to me last night? You took advantage of the situation, you were so God damned freaking selfish. ARGHHH

I am so upset. I wanted to have a good night. And I WAS HAVING AN EXCELLENT NIGHT.

Who the hell are you to dictate my life? MY LIFE.
Who are you to judge the people I'm interested in?

Why didn't I give you a chance? BECAUSE I WASN'T INTERESTED IN YOU. DUH.

The last time I gave someone a chance that I wasn't completely interested in turned into a disaster. Luckily, he and I can still talk and be friends, but that's all I ever see for us. Friends. He just doesn't get it enough to be more than that to me. And I'm so glad I realized that soon enough for us to prolong our friendship. I enjoy it, quite a bit.

Fuck I'm so pissed because you have been dictating my life. I've pitied you to the point where I just freaking feel bad so I keep this going.

Now I'm mad. Genuinely pissed the fuck off.

Chris was right, Mr. Victoria. This needs to end. You need to spend time away from me and heal again. You need to leave me the fuck alone, sir. You're making both of us miserable. YOU ARE KILLING ME. I wanted to relax and have fun this summer. You're not allowing that to happen. You're burdening me with so many damned depressing horrible things. I've been dealing with my own depressing shit all year long, and that's driven me to near insanity. I just wanted to be around someone who I can just be happy with. You don't always have to delve into your or your friend's soul to attain happiness. Some things are better left unsaid. Cry about them later, at whatever time and place you see fit. I no longer want to deal with stupid horrible ugly unhappiness. I deserve to be happy, and being happy is a choice. You can choose to be happy. To ignore the ugly of the world, and appreciate the things that are good and simple. GOD DAMN I AM JUST SO ANGRY. Straight up DARLENE MOTHER FUCKIN' RAGE. Ugh. I'm so upset. Breaking in two. I tried my best. I did. I wanted things to be better. Should have just listened to Cindy. All I wanted was to make friends that were worthwhile, because I know and believe that a lot of people are. I want to get to know people better... I want to have a group of friends at home again. I'm not just home to be your personal pet friend type thing. God I'm so mad. SO MAD. You're preventing all of this, and additionally, killing me slowly. I've not cried like that in years, and the last time I cried like that in front of a person was prolly right before the eighth grade. Fuck you for taking advantage of me. For bringing this monster out of me. I want you to go away. Just go away. Right now being alone is better than this. Fucking hate emotions. They're God damned retarded and stupid. I don't know if I want you to actually go away, but you better get the freaking point: YOU DO NOT DICTATE MY LIFE. Stop making me feel bad. I just want to smile for a while, is that so bad? If I am going to make a mistake, let me make it. I'm sorry it's not good for you, but it's not like I'm going off to do lines every night or something. I'm just interested in a guy who isn't you.

My Life is Complete.

I've seen my mother crossfaded.

Oh, this is a weekend that is to be remembered.

and it's only the first night!

She smoked with my brother!

LOL

She also believes Alex is 21.

LOLOLOLOLOLOL XD