Because It's Awesome.

So I recently saw the SanFran Symphony perform Distant Worlds.

AKA FUCK YEAAAH AWESOME FINAL FANTASY MUSSSIC!

It was a beyond amazing time. I was hella days out of my mind and it was fantastic!

Yahoo! Marina!

I AM CEREBUS ALPHAAAAAAAA...?

Derp. Yeah, whatever.

Either way, they played the chocobo theme... well one of them...

Swing de Chocobo. Fuck yes.

There was a cute explosion. I WAS SO EXCITED!! Aiyeeee~

Hrm. Yeah. So. /shurg

I present to you!

Hella cute bird singing the chocobo theme:

Redemption!

Shit. I miss spellcheck. I'm going to go through all my recent posts when I get my laptop back and FIX EVERYTHING. ~.~

ANYWAY, I feel a whole lot nicer this week.

And by that, I mean I feel a whole lot less angry.

(Hi Jacob, I can possibly send you more than one blunt text message a day!)

Speaking of blunts, they have a weed booth at the State Fair this year. LOL

Erm. Yeah.

I didn't get to go to sushi today. Kinda sucks. Was really looking forward to doing something... haven't gone out in a while... ah well, didn't really have a choice in the matter so I'll get over it. Yep!

In other news:
MY UNCLE PAUL SMELLS SO BAD OMG
OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG.
I don't think he's showered in ten days.

TEN DAYS. UGH. SMELLS LIKE HOMELESS MAN.
SMELLS LIKE INSANE HOMELESS MAN.

T.T

He's been here that amount of time: ten days. Ten days of stupid questions smell and me avoiding the front room. Urg. Of all times for me to be angry/grouchy/not feeling well why did it have to be when Uncle Paul was over?

I've been reading Lord of the Rings a lot lately. God I love Tolkien. He's so amazing. So awesome. Makes me sit down and read things. That's intense.

I read really slowly though. Only through about 200 pages. I just... don't like the physical act of reading. I can never be comfortable, because I have to have the book super close to my face so I can read it, because reading with my glasses on hurts my eyes... retarded. Wish I'd read more. There's so many good things to read, and I'd feel a lot better about myself if I did... I'd feel more... like... I'm not wasting my life away as I do with my usual forms of entertainment.

Blah blah blah, blah blah blah.

I really just want to talk about nothing. Nobody and nothing. I just want to type. I enjoy typing. Maybe it's because I'm actually not half bad at typing. I think. Maybe. Ah well, whatever.

That was quite possibly the most useless thing I've ever written. Bravo me!

Oh yeah um...

DISTANT WORLDS IS THIS WEEK OMG YAY EXCITEEEEEEEEEEDDDD :]]

Amazing, amazing, beautiful music will be MINE!

And hopefully, there will be a stuffed chocobo I can buy.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO BUY ONE. XD

I will display it on my bed next year proudly, for I am a geek, and I am a proud geek, and if you don't like chocobos, you've got some serious issues. They're about the cutest things ever. Especially baby chocobos. OMG. OMG. OMG. hellocutegasm

My friend, Chris, and his band are playing tomorrow at the State Fair. I bought a season pass but need to print it. Hopefully, I can get that sorted out somehow. I kind of feel like I should have just spend the like, extra $6 (if I decide to go 3 times, as I presume I will) to make less of a hassle. Well... I bought the stuff now so whatever but yeah... kinda freaking out about it because I don't want my mother to go through the roof for whatever retarded reason she finds...

Didn't go to College Group on Sunday. Should've, but didn't. Was kind of cold as well. Yuck! No movie, no normal Sunday night relaxation... sad.

Didn't go to Rory's yesterday (Monday Night Pong) but... that was for reasons of: "OHMYGODMYUTERUSISFALLINGOUTOW." I always love Mondays, but yeah, can't do some things so well sick. Had almost thrown up earlier that day, so I figured alcohol wouldn't be good...

Man, whatever. I'm just hella bored. I was intending on posting something meaningful, but I guess I just wanted to say I'm a whole lot less angry. It's good.

Maybe boredom cures rage. Hrm. Maybe.

I can't wait to go to the fair tomorrow. It's going to be fun. Love the fair, even though it gets hella hot. Just gotta get this season pass thing figured out and all will be well! Yahoo! :]

Thursday Distant Worlds. OMG. OMG. OMG. XD
Friday Distant Worlds.

Saturday... weekend already?! WTF?!

Possibility of Ryan and Brytnny.

Excitement.

Shit, this week may just turn out to be awesome!

BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHRAMBLERAMBLEBOREDBORED

I'm hungry. Food. Food. Food. Yum! Yay!

Mooski #7 For Your Entertainment - Adam Lambert

I've already featured this man on my Wall of Beautiful Men (see the Beautiful Men label) and I just love this song.

Sure, it doesn't show off his pipes (as much as a song could) but with pipes like his, damn!

Either way... I like this song... a lot... and to quote Mr. Ventura: "This song is sex."

I agree. I SO AGREE. :]

So I'm Hella Weird

and move/talk/whatever in my sleep.

This morning, I woke up without my PE shorts on. (I normally sleep in them, of course!)

I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW THAT HAPPENED. lol

I'm just going to guess that I'm talented. Aha :]

Just thought the world should know.

Also hella bored. Fuck my laptop screen being... dead.

But Distant Worlds is on.. Weds... I think... Weds right??

Sure, still pretty pissed at Jacob, but y'know, whatever.

Full. Live. Orchestra.

OhmyGodyes.

Yahooooo~!

To pass the time, I've been watching a lot of Harry Potter.

and I've started reading the Lord of the Rings again.

Maybe I'll read enough to finish all 3 and then muster the courage to plow through the Simarllion!

Hella butchered that. Oh well.

Don't think I'm going to Rory's tomorrow. I more than likely will feel like not. Eh heh.

Blahblahblah, blah blah, blah blah. British guy wanted to talk to me today. Made me smile.

Damn, I ALWAYS FEEL CREEPY. WHY AM I SO CREEPY?

Y'know, I don't actually think I'm that creepy. I know creepy.

Derp. Wonder how many people read this blog, anyway.

I suspect more Santa Cruz might've jumped on the bangwagon after that crazy rant post, but, I've posted nothing substantial (pertaining to them, anyway) in a while...

Man, I can't wait to see them. They are wonderful people, they really are. And I miss them.

Only like... two more months and a week. Like... roughly 70 days? Urgg...

BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHTUMMYHURTSOWBLAHBLAHBLAHURG

SO

My laptop's screen is broken.

FML. :(

Sad Panda, Encore

I don't want to be mad...

I don't want to be here...

I don't want to be alone...

I don't know what to do...

FUCK YEAH I FOUND IT!

I saw this video a hella long time ago...

and I wanted to show it to someone... can't remember who...

'cause

y'know...

DANCING GALKA LOL

Derp. <.<



There's an ToAU version, and a taru version, and all kinds of silly shit. XD

SOOOOOOO AMUSING! ♥

Darlene is Fucking Pissed.

Well shit, I sure know myself well.

I told you I'd more than likely be angry in the morning, right?

I sure wasn't kidding!

K now: Hello rant! Commence! Begin! Let the mother fucking river flow.

I am incredibly angry.

Do you realize what you did to me last night? You took advantage of the situation, you were so God damned freaking selfish. ARGHHH

I am so upset. I wanted to have a good night. And I WAS HAVING AN EXCELLENT NIGHT.

Who the hell are you to dictate my life? MY LIFE.
Who are you to judge the people I'm interested in?

Why didn't I give you a chance? BECAUSE I WASN'T INTERESTED IN YOU. DUH.

The last time I gave someone a chance that I wasn't completely interested in turned into a disaster. Luckily, he and I can still talk and be friends, but that's all I ever see for us. Friends. He just doesn't get it enough to be more than that to me. And I'm so glad I realized that soon enough for us to prolong our friendship. I enjoy it, quite a bit.

Fuck I'm so pissed because you have been dictating my life. I've pitied you to the point where I just freaking feel bad so I keep this going.

Now I'm mad. Genuinely pissed the fuck off.

Chris was right, Mr. Victoria. This needs to end. You need to spend time away from me and heal again. You need to leave me the fuck alone, sir. You're making both of us miserable. YOU ARE KILLING ME. I wanted to relax and have fun this summer. You're not allowing that to happen. You're burdening me with so many damned depressing horrible things. I've been dealing with my own depressing shit all year long, and that's driven me to near insanity. I just wanted to be around someone who I can just be happy with. You don't always have to delve into your or your friend's soul to attain happiness. Some things are better left unsaid. Cry about them later, at whatever time and place you see fit. I no longer want to deal with stupid horrible ugly unhappiness. I deserve to be happy, and being happy is a choice. You can choose to be happy. To ignore the ugly of the world, and appreciate the things that are good and simple. GOD DAMN I AM JUST SO ANGRY. Straight up DARLENE MOTHER FUCKIN' RAGE. Ugh. I'm so upset. Breaking in two. I tried my best. I did. I wanted things to be better. Should have just listened to Cindy. All I wanted was to make friends that were worthwhile, because I know and believe that a lot of people are. I want to get to know people better... I want to have a group of friends at home again. I'm not just home to be your personal pet friend type thing. God I'm so mad. SO MAD. You're preventing all of this, and additionally, killing me slowly. I've not cried like that in years, and the last time I cried like that in front of a person was prolly right before the eighth grade. Fuck you for taking advantage of me. For bringing this monster out of me. I want you to go away. Just go away. Right now being alone is better than this. Fucking hate emotions. They're God damned retarded and stupid. I don't know if I want you to actually go away, but you better get the freaking point: YOU DO NOT DICTATE MY LIFE. Stop making me feel bad. I just want to smile for a while, is that so bad? If I am going to make a mistake, let me make it. I'm sorry it's not good for you, but it's not like I'm going off to do lines every night or something. I'm just interested in a guy who isn't you.

My Life is Complete.

I've seen my mother crossfaded.

Oh, this is a weekend that is to be remembered.

and it's only the first night!

She smoked with my brother!

LOL

She also believes Alex is 21.

LOLOLOLOLOLOL XD

HolyShitFuck

I AM SO CUDDLY WHILE INTOXICATED!

Last night was pretty fun. I was pretty silly.

Lokos are INSANE. So much alcohol in one can?! WTF?!

Luckily for my liver, next Monday is the last night of Pong at Rory's.

but you better bet your ass I'll be there! Yeaaah! :]

Ah well, Rancho was bumpin' last night and it was prettyyyy awesome.

Can't wait for this weekend. It is destined to be freaking amazing...

People to Invite:

DUH:
Nicole (IT'S HER BIRTHDAY!)
& Cindy

San Jose People:
Ryan
Brytnny
Alec
Julia
British Jon
Sarah

Rancho People:
Alex

ANNNND ME!

That'd be 10 people. Good sized party. Sounds excellent.

LET'S DOOOO IT!

PS: People from SoCal, you guys are more than welcome, I just don't expect anyone to fly out to Rancho for a weekend party. YOU GUYS KNOW I LOVE YOOOOU!

FUCK I'M SO EXCITED

ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG RYAN AND BRYTNNY AND NICOLE AND CINDY ALL IN THE SAME WEEKEND?! AND LAKE! LAKE! LAKE! I'LL MAKE FREAKING HAMBURGERS!!

IT'LL BE SOOOOO GOOD!

OHMYFREKINGGOOODD

GOING TO BE THE BEST WEEKEND EVER. NEED TO FIND ALEX SO I CAN GET US SOME EXTRA FUN!

IF NOT, OH WELL.

...OR WE CAN GET SUPPLEMENTAL FUN FROM SOMEONE ELSE!

CAPS IS COMPLETELY NECESSARY TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I WILL, AND IN CASE IT DOESN'T HAPPEN 100% LIKE ABOVE, WOULD, LOVE THIS WEEKEND.

YEEEEEEEEES.

THE PLANNING BEGINS NOW.

Gotta Stop Bein' SO LAZY!

and respond!

I need to write long, loving, beautiful thank yous and OHMYGODILOVEYOUs and all kinds of stuff... some people just amaze me to no end...

Blahahahahsdikfdbaildbghqw846b ntyhgs,f

People have made me feel better about college.

Lots, lots better.

And they need to know it MOAR!

Yeppity yep yep~!

Going to play Pong at Rory's tonight. Hella excited to kick it with Rancho peeps! Jacob doesn't drink, nor does he care for social situations. Might be an interesting night. Hopefully and hopefully not it will warrant another blog post tomorrow. We'll see. WE'LL SEE!

Also: I woke up at 2 PM today. Really gotta fix my sleep schedule. Gotta stop watching Doctor Who with my brother until 6 AM.

...but it's just so fun!! ARGH!

I think he finished Season 3 last night, and now he's watching 2... because he originally skipped it for some reason, and just watched Doomsday. Haha.

Oh, last night was hella legit, btw.

Had In-and-Out, saw Kylie, Kristen, and Brad! I'd of liked to talk to them more, but it would've been hella weird because Jacob doesn't really know them at all.

and after amazing delicious awesome foods, we watched Ponyo. Cuteexplosion type of film! ♥


directed by none other than
Hayao Miyazaki! *cheers*

My friends here have made it their mission to educate me on the awesomeness that is Miyazaki. We've already watched Spirited Away and Princess Mononoke! I'm super excited to see the rest of his films. I've loved them so far.

Ponyo was just freaking adorable. So adorable. Poor Ryan Miller couldn't handle the cuteness for a while, which, of course, lead to even more entertainment.

Oh yeah, went to College Group for the first time last night. Made me remember how much I enjoyed going to Youth Group a few years ago. The atmosphere is so nice, so peaceful, so all-encompassing and brilliantly comforting and safe. I like religion. It's a good way to get together, bond, and share experiences, life, and whatever else. Made me really happy, and relaxed my mind. Can't wait for next Sunday!

Tomorrow I'm planning to watch more Glee with Cindy. I would today, but today I'm not really moving so much until it's time for Pong. Yaaaay, hella days lazy Darlene! It happens. I'm sure she'll understand. Man... I really need to shower.

OH! One last thing: Blogging is cool.

Hurrrrderpderp OUT LIKE TROUT!

FFXI June 21 Update

HOLY SHIT SO MUCH STUFF

Gonna make a list of shiny stuff, so I don't forget what I'm going to be aiming for...

• Teal Saio
• Teal Cuffs
• Teal Slops
• Estoqueur's Collar
• Aceso's Choker
• Austerity Belt
• Cognizant Belt
• Tiresias' Cape
• Augur's Jaseran
• Augur's Gloves
• Augur's Brais
• Augur's Gaiters
• Neptune's/Aquilo's Earrings/Rings
• Owleyes
• Vivid Strap +1
• Savant's Treatise
• Witchsatch

That's amazing. Hasn't been an update in which I'm actually interested in what they're putting out in a long time. Haha!

GOTTA GET EXTRA MOOLAH IN BEFORE XIV COMES OUT! lul

New areas. Level cap is 80 now. Hrm. Intense shit, SE.

...but my internet atm is like, "HEY YOU CAN'T GET INTO POL TO SAVE YOUR LIFE! LOL"

Sooo, this update will have to wait a bit.

I like being a nerd. It's hella cool.

More Stuff I've Made!

...there's even more crap that I've made, but after takin' a gander in the old Photobucket, these are the ones... I'm good with posting here. :] Lots of FFXI signatures... (God knows that's not all of them, too!) and old stuff I used to use on MySpace... icons... stuff I've made for people, even Vanquish's old homepage... so much STUFF!

Older Wallpaper

...just never posted this one...

I edit shit all the time, I'm really surprised that not a lot of my stuff is in posts on here...

Hrm.

Anyway, Muse heart thing, in purple. Love it!

Desktop Wallpaper I Made!

Oooooh, he's so pretty, especially in purple! ♥

(If you don't know who this is, read my blog more, and listen to good music.)

The resolution is lower than I wanted, because Photobucket won't make things as big as I'd like them, and I use Photobucket to edit stuff, so, hey, I get owned.

Luckily, this still looks awesome, even if it's stretched out a little.

My natural screen resolution is 1366 x 768... hello widesreen!

Beautiful Man #10 - Billy Boyd

3rd man from LOTR! This is Billy Boyd, better know as Pippin! ♥ He's just so damn adorable, and silly, and I love the part when he sings the song "The Steward of Gondor." It's beautiful, and creepy, and done so well. He's my favorite hobbit, by far, and like a good fan girl, I'm excited when he's on screen! I honestly don't know what else he really does, but he has def been my desktop background before. This picture, even! Mmmmm... short people with hairy feet.

Beautiful Man #9 - Viggo Mortensen

Viggo Mortensen is the second LOTR man to grace my wall, and it is not without reason! But don't worry, dear reader, Gimili will not be an addition just because he's in the movies! Yet another super attractive older man... my Mom is always like, "ooooh!" when he comes on screen... or at least she was, God knows she'll prolly not watch LOTR again. Aragorn's character is played so well... and is so manly... and stuff. Oh well, this actor is awesome, and looks awesome. Woo!

Mooski #6 Boombox - The Lonely Island ft. Julian Casablancas

You need to see this. Just sayin. Doesn't matter who you are. Just watch. Same guys who did "I'm on a Boat."